Hi i'm ashley and i just found out i'm pregnant about a week ago. i havent been to a doctor yet so i dont know exactly how far along i am. the day i was supposed to start my period, my fiance and i got drunk with the neighbors. well he's an alcoholic and he gets violent when he drinks too much. that night i went with him to his work because he had some stuff to do. we were already arguing and he ended up pulling me out of the car and he swung me too hard and he basically threw me. when i refused to leave with him he drove away after threatening to wreck my car. i was alone at the shop so i ran into the back door which i happened to know they keep unlocked and called the cops. he actually only drove around the corner and then came looking for me but the cops found him before he found me. they arrested him and he was charged with domestic abuse and one of the stipulations of his bail is that he cannot have contact with me. a few days later i realized my peroid was four days late and i took a test. deep down inside i wanted it to be positive because we always wanted a child together and i hadnt been on birth control for that reason. well i got what i asked for but the timing is horrible. i was able to let him know that i'm pregnant and we do want to try to work things out. i have a feeling that the responsibility of having a child will motivate him to quit drinking. he has quit before but he started hanging out with the neighbors more when i worked late and thats why he started again. he's also on probabation and he's probably going to go to jail for at least six months. all of this makes me very depressed because now my family hates him and it feels like our relationship has no hope. i love him very much and i want to have a family with him and i do want to marry him but so much has been working against us. i don't know what to do or if i can even do anything. i just want us to go back to the way we were when he wasnt drinking and we were happy and when i felt that we were stable enough to have a baby, and i mean financially and emotionally stable. now we are neither and i'm pregnant. i dont want to have an abortion but i have considered it because of the circumstances. before that night i knew where my life was going and i felt safe and everything was wonderful. now i feel like my life is falling apart and everythings going to hell. we are both so excited about the baby and it breaks my heart because we cant even be together.