PLS TAKE A WHILE TO READ ABT ME N REPLYYY!!!!!

I hav changed a lot...I dunno why..But..There's somethin behind it...I dont wish to open myself..I am not at all open..But recently...I felt soo depressed n I happened to say to my best friends abt me n my past experiences problems etc..I'm just 16 yrs old...But I hav faced a lot of problem..Wich u all or some1 who hears me may nt feel as a great prob...
So I dun say anythin abt me to others..I always cry alone...Wish to be with a lot of frnds always...But ...
I liked to go to school..That I forget my pain n probs wen am with my frnds...
I was a cutter...
But my best friend urged me to promise tht I wont cut anymore..So am not able to cut now...Am greatly depressed..N I dunno wat to do...I really wish to hav sum1 to talk with..My parents dun hear me..Thjey dun kno abt my problems n pain...I dun usually say anythin to them abt me...
They dun hear me..Not even my sis...
I need to hav counsellin...
Due to some official matters..My father got transferred to another place..So they r takin mke along with them to a far away place...I dunno wat am gonna do..Its only my best friend who know abt me in this world..I dun wish to leave them...
I dunno wat am gonna doo.....
I always feel like suicin..But I get shivering..N my mind is nt allowing me to do so..Since my mind is full of hopes n dreams...
I'm behavin differently..I lost my control over myself..I dunno why am gettin angry with my parents..
I always hav a pain with me since 4 0r 5 yrs...
My parents dun care abt tht ..Since they r always busy with their works...
I dun usually say to them abt my pain n probs...
I study well even I hav pain also..So as to cherish my life....
But wat to do...Now everythin is out of my control..I hav to leave my school...My studies will get collapsed...I will surely suffer from depression...Once I know tht I had depression yrs before...I hardly recovered without letting any1 to know abt tht...I think its bcos I had frnds with.Me...But now..
I hav to study but.Am depressed...Am nt sure whether its depression or what..I feel so lonely..I cry a lot....I'm always tired..I was such a calm, n cool gal..But now am so...Moody,i alawys sit alone..Dun talk with my parents much..Why I changed so??
Will my pain go???Then..Wen????
I feel like am losin my hopes...So wat am gonna do??I cant cut now..
Aaah!!!!
Sooooo saad..N depressed....Always I parted my frnds due to some probs again I make frndship with new classmates...N again I get parted frm them...
Now I had such a great frnd ,school,i was getting noprmal..I studied well...
But why am always losin all..My parents r not hearin me understandin me..
"i dun wish to blame them...Since they hav a lot of work..They cant alawys come behind me n care me as I wish to have"
i'm gettin helplessss......Hopelesss.....
Am losin everything in my life....Why????
Again..Will my pain go???
Huh!!!!!
What happened to me...I changed a lot.......Is there anyone like me......??