i dont know y but i just feel like dyin
these days. i c it on tv ppl dyin n how
they r goin to be missed. But when i think
about it wat have i done, if i die
tomorrow will be remembered, will i be
missed. all i do is i stay home, i have
alot of friends, who can get girls n live
there life. I think im ugly,im hairy, im
scared to fight n im stupid. when i c a
person who is in a gang, i compare myself
to them. there good lookin, there not
hairy, there not scared of anything, they
get girls n there madd smart. I have never
went on a date or even kissed a girl n im
17. i have been really depressed about
that. i dont get picked or nything n i do
bad in skool. i never cutt myself. im not
suicidal but i just imagine wat my life
would be like if i was never born or
killed. alot of ppl would be happy with my
life, i have good family, some good
friends, n thats it. i have no money. im
the stupid guy in the family, everybody
knows n says im stupid but i act like it
doesnt bother me when it does. it really
puts down my selfesteem. i want to be a
social guy in school but i get scared of
wat ppl will think of me. i want to be
loud in my class but never am cuz i get
nervous. i never got drunk or smoked bud.
my life suks everysingle day i think about
y shouldnt i kill myself or y am i livin,
do i have a purpose? if i like a girl i
cant talk to her or anything.
|
Jude-Love
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Jun 2007 Posts: 727 Location: Williamstown, Kentucky USA
Posted: 06-28-07 16:55pm
Awww..your life does not suck and you are
not stupid. Right now, hooking up,
getting high, and getting drunk seem like
the cool things to do. Really it isn't
and I think the fact that you haven't done
those things makes you smart!
|
seabirds awaiting spring
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Jul 2007 Posts: 13 Location: In a pit surrounded by great beauty
Re: I Don't Like My Life Posted: 07-02-07 21:43pm
bornalonediealone
wrote:
when i c a person who is in a gang, i
compare myself to them. there good lookin,
there not hairy, there not scared of
anything, they get girls n there madd
smart.
Nobody knows what a person's thinking, or
if they are brave or not. They can pose,
the can look brave. But who knows how
they're feelin' inside. Everybody has
fear, don't let 'em fool ya. Courage
isn't what they look like on the outside,
it's what you yourself got on the INside.
Either you got courage or you don't.
Either way, you're gonna be scared time to
time. Everybody's scared time to time.
Courage is putting up with it instead of
running away and hiding. And courage is
not pretending to be something you're not.
So don't even worry about bein' scared or
bein' brave. Courage and honor and
quality is what's inside you and it's
yours and nobody can take it from you.
Sometimes what you see someone else they
look not-scared. That's not it. They
just don't care any more. They're not
scared, and they're not brave. They're
just doing what they think they're
supposed to do to fit the pose they want.
I'll tell you a secret about girls.
There's more than one out there aimin' for
you. You be genuine. Be who you are.
Don't worry about posing right like those
empty shells out there. You might not
know it, but you got your own unique,
special, character and personality. If
you're somebody else, you might get their
girl, but you wouldn't be happy with that.
If you are yourself, and "keep the faith"
-- in other words, don't give up, -- that
inevitable magnetic attraction will draw
you and her together. So I hope she's
keeping herself good for you, and I hope
you make yourself good for her.
If you think you're not smart, who cares.
Everybody's learning all the time. Keep
learning. The ones that think they are
already smart, hey, they've stopped
learning. You're gonna keep getting
better, and they're stagnating. Don't
stagnate.
