I think I may be schizophrenic. I think that the house I'm renting a room in some sort of halfway house. I think the landlord is actually a psychiatrist. I think everyone knows I have schizophrenia. I hear voices in my head and am able to carry out conversations with myself in my head, although I know the voices are not real. Two of my "friends" have mentioned schizophrenia to my face, however, not directed at me. I'll go into a few details about myself. I'm a 19 year old college dropout. My schizophrenia began about a month ago, when I suffered a blackout or nervous breakdown, not sure which. Before then my life had seemed normal. Since then I have not been able to go back. I am paranoid everyone knows my illness and thus will treat me different for the rest of my life. Suicide is constantly on my mind, as is constant worry and confusion about my illness. As a child I was very suspicious of my parents, thinking they were out to ruin my life. I did not have much of a social life as a child or teenager, and do not now either. I am depressed about 98% of the time and have very unusual sleep patterns. I am unable to cry or laugh. I currently smoke marijuana to help with my depression. Schizophrenia has run in my family, my uncle suffers from it, and my family has done there best to keep my away from him, for some reason. I have had nightmares of him coming and killing my family. I don't have hallucinations. Once again, I think I may be schizophrenic. I don't think an assessment is even necessary.