I am having bad neck pain that comes and goes sometimes my head hurts I am paranoid of getting HIV from casual contact just this recently I was visiting my mom in the hospitial and I was wearing flip flops. I was keep thinking what if I step on a needle what if some blood get on my feet what if someone steps on my feet in the elevator I didn't even want to get in the elevators because they had alot of people in them I started sweating so bad in my mind I think that I have HIV I am keep thinking I have it now I know that I do because my body is aching this is a sign my arms hurt when I strecth them. sometimes my neck also pops sometimes. it feels like a big weight is sitting on the back of my neck and now I am getting stressed out even more because my boyfriend has a little lump in his neck it was there for like a week I think that it is still there but just little he had went to the ER and they said that it could be a muscle spasm and told him to come back for a cat scan. I think that it's a lymph node. I am now thinking what if I had gave him some disease or what if he contracted something from the past we have been together for like 6 mths now I have been knowing him since High School he says that he always uses condoms. I remeber the very first time I was about to have to have sex with him we didnt have a condom so we both decided no not without a condom and he even said that he wasn't about to do anything without a condom. And now we don't use condoms he says that I am the only one he haven't used a condom on and he feels safe with me because I get tested for HIV alot, and now I am so scared to death of the what if's they are driving me so crazy I do trust him alot and he is smart when it comes to sex and knows about HIV but I am just thinking of what if's he goes to the hospitial monday morning and I am so nervous I am going to tell him to get a HIV test to ease my mind but I am going to still think that I contracted it from all the other casual fiascos. By the way I only had two sex partners including him and my first love I had unprotected sex with him plenty of times but the last time with him was in december and I have had plenty of HIV tests after him and when I was with him.