I'm new here and I am getting worse in my condition. I was taking risperdal for about five years and then I became ill. I was getting dizzy all of the time and I had severe anxiety and head pain. I had my medication changed to invega but I am dizzy most of the time still. I think that my brain is swelling, because when I take an antiinflammatory medication the dizziness subsides. It also feels as if I could faint at any moment.

Honestly, I think that my first "delusion" about my life coming to an end and feeling as if it were over for me wasn't so far from the truth. It hasn't been that long. This could be it for me if this crap isn't fixed. It hurts alot and I can't work if I am near fainting and dizzy all of the time.
But if I stop taking my medication then I will lose it, my family can't be around me when I am like that, and I will not make it. Yeah yeah yeah, face your problems, blah blah blah. If I were to do that it would be over for me and I haven't mastered the guitar yet.

However, I am almost looking forward to the rest of being dead though. If only getting there wasn't so retardedly painful.