I wont tell the whole scenario right now, but I am too addicted to ritalin. I never used to be, but .. then.. everything, changed. I got layed off, then ran out of cash, then borrowed cash, in exchange for some, and on and on.
I work full time, and if I had enough sleep, then my work, wouldnt be bad, it would be boring, but thats about it. But crappy sleep due to carelessly insulfating is killing my life. I dont want othes to know, .. and if I were to just sleep 15 hours, every night, they would wonder, sadly if I keep going no one knows,,, but its got to the point that I cant emotionally , physically keep this up.