L know I post things a little too much but
I have no one to talk to and this eating
thing is just getting worse and worse.
This is me just letting stuff go so there
is no need to reply. I'm so sick of being
this way I hate that I have an eating
disorder and that my parents dont care.
Well its not that they dont care they just
think I am getting over it on my own, yeah
right. I cant do this on my own its
impossible but there is no one here that
can help me. This such a caca disorder I
really hate it. I have let everything go
my school work and my life everything is
out of controll. I'm stting here writing
this when I have a 4 page essay that I has
to be done for tommorow,see i'm stupid if
I had any strenght or brains I would be
doing my essay.
and my friend came to me yesterday scared
that she was pregant and I gave her the
money to go to the doctor and everything
and did she say thanks no I dont think so,
well it doesnt matter she worried so I
dont expect that from her thats what
friends are for. Were are my friends they
dont give a dame they complain to me that
I have made our friendship weird and they
dont fell they can even go out for a meal
because I have a food issue. But they
dont even try to help me and I understand
that too because they have there own
problems so its fine that they cant be
there. Its nobodys fault but my own and I
must remeber that. I must be soo stupid
to oh I dont know I just am stupid and
selllfish I hate this whole thing. Well
that was a major vent pls dont even take a
bit of notice to me I am stupid and just
wanted to tell you alll that.
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Replies(4)
cherimreplied on March 3rd, 2004
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Just My Thoughts
Hey, lost to you. I think you are
probably more like the rest of us then you
know. I felt stupid, like I was
completely out of control. Eating was
the only control I had. I can't believe
that your parents don't care, they
probably don't understand. My mother
still doesn't understand how serious it
really is and I am 29 and have been
suffering since I was 12. I know how
important it is to feel like someone is
there to talk, someone who cares. If you
need someone I am here. I have been
eating normal for more than a year and a
half. I have 3 kids. I believe in god
and jesus, and will say a prayer for you.
What ever you want is fine. May god
bless you and give you peace.
Cherim
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lostoyoureplied on March 3rd, 2004
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Thanks
Thanks cherim but you didnt need to reply.
I needed to write that because I knew if
I said it to someone I knew they would
listen and take it seriously but i'm fine
now because today I have finally gained a
little control and that feeling of be out
of control isnt there anymore(well for
now). Your right about my parents they
dont understand and they trust that I am
getting better becuase thats what I tell
them. It must of been hard for you to
have dealt with this for so long but i'm
glad you are getting better and growing
stronger, I really admire you for that.
I was wondering if I could ask you a
question about this girl I know. Today we
had a fitness test in school and they
weighed us and took our height and stuff
like that, but this girl I kind of know
i'm not friends with her actually I havent
realy ever talked to her. Anyway I found
out she was bulimic because she told me
she didnt want to get weighted and from
the way she was talking I think she has
been doing this for a long time. It also
seemed like nobody knew and I was thinking
because I know what she is going through
should I tell her she can talk to me
whenever she needs a chat. You see I dont
know her that well and I dont want her to
feel like i'm intruding so I wasnt sure if
I should say it. What you think should I
just tell her that I amm going through the
same thing so I understand and of she ever
wants to talk i'm here?
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cherimreplied on March 4th, 2004
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Your Friend
Hello. I am glad you are doing a little
better. I thought for a while about
the girl at school. I know myself I
didn't want anyone to know, unless I
shared with them. Maybe you could just
tell her what you are facing, and how you
feel, and hopefully she will open up. I
do believe if she is ready for help she
will let you in. Unfortunatly this
disease is isolating a lot of the time.
Sometime when we are involved in helping
someone else we can, see our own issue
clearer. All the best. Let me know what
you decide and how it works out. Okay?
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Sparkles412replied on March 5th, 2004
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Lostoyou
You said that your parents know but they
don't care? Have you told them that you
were better, and they think you are doing
better? I'm sure that if you went to them
and told them you needed help, that they
would be glad to help you. If your
friends don't care, then why do you bother
with them? If they were your real
friends, they would be there for you in a
time like this. If you can't find anyone
that will talk to you, go to your school
nurse or call your doctor maybe they can
help you. But most of all make sure you
tell your parents, because they really
need to know if you need help. It's good
to vent so don't feel bad about writing on
here, it's good for you to get it out.
And I bet it feels even better to know
that someone answered you. Don't give up
on yourself, and I wish you the best of
luck! Take care of yourself