L know I post things a little too much but I have no one to talk to and this eating thing is just getting worse and worse. This is me just letting stuff go so there is no need to reply. I'm so sick of being this way I hate that I have an eating disorder and that my parents dont care. Well its not that they dont care they just think I am getting over it on my own, yeah right. I cant do this on my own its impossible but there is no one here that can help me. This such a caca disorder I really hate it. I have let everything go my school work and my life everything is out of controll. I'm stting here writing this when I have a 4 page essay that I has to be done for tommorow,see i'm stupid if I had any strenght or brains I would be doing my essay.

and my friend came to me yesterday scared that she was pregant and I gave her the money to go to the doctor and everything and did she say thanks no I dont think so, well it doesnt matter she worried so I dont expect that from her thats what friends are for. Were are my friends they dont give a dame they complain to me that I have made our friendship weird and they dont fell they can even go out for a meal because I have a food issue. But they dont even try to help me and I understand that too because they have there own problems so its fine that they cant be there. Its nobodys fault but my own and I must remeber that. I must be soo stupid to oh I dont know I just am stupid and selllfish I hate this whole thing. Well that was a major vent pls dont even take a bit of notice to me I am stupid and just wanted to tell you alll that.