Probably perfectly normal.............why you didn't talk about it?your a private person?you like to handle things yourself?you were embarrassed?ashamed?feeling like a failure?.................only you can answer that...........and lots of time to reflect will probably bring about an answer................most humans "push them to the back of the mind" or suppress memories as a sort of survival technique..................to keep them from going mad..............."system overload" if you will..................now that your ready to talk and gain support..............you can bring it out at your own pace...............slowly and gently

very very normal! You didn't wanty to talk about it maybe because you thought he'd get angry or maybe you didn't want people to think/know he was a bad person or know that you allowed yourself into a situation like that.I was the same way and felt all those things.my suggestion is that you get into a doctor (psychologist) and have a talk.you would be surprised of what you can find out about yourself and your relationship.Supressing things that happened is totally normal and yes, you can remember them and it is my opinion that it will help you in the long run to remember and get them out. I believe supressnig things can unknowingly have an affect on your everyday life and relationships.I hipe things get better for you hun and please keep us updated.if you ever want to talk,i'm here!