Agoraphobia / panic Attacks

i have panic and agoraphobia when ever i go out from home i need a safe person with me.even when i drive i need an adult to be there in case i have a panic attack they can take over the driving.whenever i go shopping i need to know where all the exits are in case i have to leave in a hurry.anyone with this problem?

when i first started getting the symptoms i was going to open days at a university, and we got into one of the lecture rooms and i just started getting all sweaty, short of breath and dizzy. so i got out quickly then was fine. but over the last 6 months it's got gradually worse, when i'm in a car and start going even a little bit fast lets say 30 - 40 i start gettign short of breath. but now i'm getting full blown panic attacks. along with constipation and diaorrah at times. and i get a constant numbness and stiffness in my left hand and just feel tired in general.

i suffer agrophobia/panik attacks. Started when i was 12, today im 27 and still have them. Well they went away when i was 14 and come back when i was 21 after 2 yrs in a physically/mentally abusive r/s.
The vanished when i was 24 and 4 months pg with my daughter. I left her abusive father after 6 yrs together when my daughter was 8 months old because i didnt have anxiety anymore and was strong enough to leave him as the agrophobia came into it before i fell pg. I was flat out scared to even walk to my mail box without my best friend/flat mate suffering the same thing comig with me!
Anyways the anxiety came back full blown when my daughter was 16months old. I was in a new r/s and going threw alot of stress. The anxiety attacks took over and the agrophobia came back with it! It's been really hard and depressing on me as i feel like a failure of a mother with this disorder. When i was pg with her and the anxiety left i got my life back, got a car, a licence, went everywhere by myself etc it felt great then bang they were back!
Im heaps lucky i have a very understanding partner BUT he doesn't the full extent of what im going threw! I have attacks over irational thoughts, watching some movies, sitting there thinking i might have an attack, remembering old attacks u name it....
i have to force myself to take my mind off it to make it go away, its totally hard to do but i get threw it.
My mind races, i cant think straight, i get sweaty palms, i get diareah, feel nauseas, i get urges to run and do stupid caca to take my mind off the attack untill it passes!
Its an awful thing to go threw and it prevents me living a normal life even taking a shower alone or when i know i have to do something i cant get out of like having to sit and watch my daughter have a bath i know i cant leave her side so it makes me uneased and the thought of going out makes me feel dread i avoid shopping centres at all possible costs and grocey shopping! I fear having an attack in public cause ppl might think i am crazy! But this is probably due to the fact i had an attack once in a shopping centre with my ex who dragged my by the hair threw the centre and told me to wake up to myself im a crazy health forum... he would always stuff like that when i had an attack and it put me off going in public. i fear it now! And i never leave the house without my partner cuz im scared if i have one while driving with my daughter in the car or i have one around my daughter no one will be there to look after her, i cant even stay in a house on my own cause i want my daughter n i to be looked after incase i have an attack, they rule my life and it is awful. I dont take medication because it requires going to a doctor and i fear being told something is wrong with me ive had attacks so bad ive had to call mental health on myself twice in 5 yrs although they didnt seem to care or tell me to come in they just said it was an attack of anxiety in which they were right but on both occassions i totally felt like i was losing my mind! The second one was worse i was throwing up, shitting myself and crying uncontrollably out of no where and i didnt know why? And i couldnt stop these crazy irational thoughts i was getting like sudden urges to kick my daughter it was horible and i had to get my mum to take my daughter off me for the night till i felt better, it was 2 hrs later i felt fine and back to my normal self.
now im 6 months pg with #2 and i thought the attacks might of gone by now like with my daughter but no they are worse and i get sudden out bursts to cry and life is so caca with my r/s and kids i think ive also got depression! its not fun but im a batteler, always have been and i know ill get threw it because the best feeling in the world is waking up to my daughter every morning and seeing her smile, she is beautiful she makes my days i just feel so sad i cant take her anywhere on my own

I use to go shopping just about every day and/or go out side and go for walks then after the birth of my second child (6 weeks after) whom just turned 3 yrs old in the beginning of this month I have been having these problems, getting shaky, nervousness, I freeze up and it only gets worse, after my 6 months I could no longer go to a store or any where else. I would tell my self that I needed to go places (shopping) but would start shaking, sweating, felt the urge to want to go hide in a dark closet and never come out and my stomach getting very tight feeling the urge to want or feel like I desperately needed to use the restroom (#1 only), but didn't or have to because I would try.... After menacing to the OB Doc at my check ups he would say nothing and go about his day. I never used the words panic attacks or agoraphobia to him, but had said how everything else was bothering me..... NOTHING WAS DONE!!! I just though I must have been crazy!!! After I went home that day I called the mental health clinic up to get an appointment since I though I was going crazy. Guess what I talked to a physiatrist and told her my problems I was having and I got a physic evaluation 3 months later, then 3 months after that I got an appointment to see some one about getting medication. That is what they told me I have. I have been on three different medications and have not been back to the mental health for over a year now, they keep changing and rescheduling my appointments of me. What do I do in the mean time???? Go crazy, since I don’t leave my house what so ever????

Well since i last posted here, my panic attacks have been more frequent(sp?) i've seen my doctor and he's referred me to se a councilor which should be alot of fun i was also having a few chest pains a few weeks back and my doctor gave me co-cocodamol and ibuprofen for that, and the co-codamol help with my panic attacks strangly enough due to it having codine in it. so i'm thinking i might get some more and take one or two every time i start to feel panicy

You seem to be having a chronic panic condition.Consult your doctor and give a detailed history of your condition.You may ask doctor if he can prescribe antidepressant like Mirtazapine 7.5 mg which can help you feel very light and relaxed.The effect lasts 24 hours so you can take this before bedtime.
Also you need to be very positive in thinking.I may not be able to provide you article here in this forum as they are very long. You can change your destiny by having beautiful thoughts in your mind.If you have good dreams in your mind those dreams will come true but if you have bad dreams they will also come true so you need to be carefull what you carry in your mind and thinking.
Hope this helps,
sanjay