bipolar and eating disorders ? Posted: 06-16-07 09:03am
I am on a bit of a knife edge at the
moment and was looking for an opinion
before i see my doctors again. I have
bipolar disorder and have suffered from
eating disorders for many years. I don't
know who i am. I feel there is something
that i never tell my doctors for fear of
total abandonment. If i tell them the way
my mind works they will send me away and
take everything away from me. I know how
to work people, i know how to manipulate
and say what needs to be said. This
worries me even more now. There is
something that i can't access, i'm
thinking i actually don't exist - nobody
does, not here, somewhere else. There is
also the thing that drives me absolutely
crazy-i always have 'one' person, i go out
way out of my way to get their attention
and i hate, REALLY hate to know they have
children or give attention to someone
else. Then i move on, i never see that
person again, in fact i can't, they make
me writhe. I move onto the next. I can
construct anything i want to. I think i
may have caused the bipolar diagnoses so
now i don't take my meds. I am dreadfully
depressed but i have to know who i really
am. does this sound like normal bipolar?
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mrsbuzski
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Jun 2007 Posts: 103 Location: U.S.A. -- Illinois
Relax Posted: 06-17-07 03:24am
Hey Katie
Don't work yourself into a frenzy.
No one is perfect!
Try to relax and concentrate on the here
and now. What ever that may be; give it
your all!
Don't try to explain something (to your
Doctor)you don't understand yourself!
Slow down.
Be happy and thankful, always! We could
be somewhere else! Not as compromising
and without the internet! Not to mention
the basics that we as mankind are so used
to.
And some of us, yes, always try to please
people. Something to do with our parents
and the way "we" were raised. There's
nothing wrong with that, I think, don't
you?
Iam bp and hate it. I am also a good
person and deserve to be happy one second
at a time. You are a bp person that needs
validation and acceptance. accept it you
cannot change it and the longer you fight
against it you will hurt inside more
intensly. which in my opinion we as bp's
are addicted to that intense feeling -
makes us feel less invisible. If you now
know this is who you are find ways to give
yourself that validation find many
different kinds of ways to boost yourself
up when your down and ways to bring
yourself down when your up. I reapeat
things like mantras so that I can thru the
swinging moods. I am a rapid cycler so I
am overwhlemed daily I hope this helps.
God help us.
