Generalized Anxiety Disorder With Severe Depression Posted: 06-13-07 16:06pm
Well I was
diagnosed with GAD sept of 2006. It was a
very tough year. I managed to get through
though with out meds because when I tried
lexapro it only made things worse. The
weird thing about my GAD is it mostly
comes about a week before my period and
lasts for a week. During that week I want
to die. So about 5 days ago I started
feeling detached from myself. No feelings
for anything All I do is cry all day long.
I feel like im stuck in a bottle and cant
get out. Sometimes I think about suicide
because it gets so hard. Im not really
sure is it derealization or something
else. Am I going mentally crazy??? The
worst part is I have a wonderfull husband
and a 2 year old baby boy. They are both
great and they dont deserve this. Oh also
some other symptoms are burning feeling in
my face like a sunburn or something, and
when I stand I feel like Im going to
faint. I dont know what to do. All I can
do is cry all day. I just want to die.
Will this ever go away I CAN NOT handle
it. Some other weird symptoms lately are
nausea, my heart punds once in a while,
but it has never been this bad. I feel
like Im on the edge and Im about to burst.
Please help!!! I tried to go to a
therapist but they said that my condition
is not bad enough and wouldnt accept me. I
dont know where to turn or what to do. I
made a list 2 days ago with all my
symptoms, I will list them below, let me
know if anyone went through this:
*Burning feeling in face, kind of numbs up
*sudden chill in face
*no energy, want to sleep all day
*Trembling when I wake up
*Scary feeling in chest (DREAD)
*Sometimes hard to catch my breath
*Sore jaw and sore face
*feelings of unreality
*Dont care about anything (cry all day)
*I feel detached like Im 80% asleep and 20
awake
*Very depressed (feel like no reason to
live)
I was fine about a week ago until we had a
party with alcohol and I was pretty drunk.
I wonder if that had anything to do with
this???
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edupat940
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Joined: 13 Jun 2007 Posts: 28
Posted: 06-13-07 17:29pm
Obkarman,
I have had similar experiences and I can
say that alcohol was a huge contributing
factor in my anxiety/depression. Alcohol
is a depressant which I forget about
sometimes. Once I cut way back on the
beer and coffee I got a lot better. I
don't think you are going crazy just maybe
going through some rough times. I also
found out that my fear of anxiety fed my
actual anxiety which led to most of those
symptoms you descirbed. I had all of the
symptoms you are having.
Have you ever tried to write down the
circumstances that are bothering you. Not
your symptoms but other portions of your
life that you worry about.
Also, exercise helped me tremendously.
Help me focus my energy on something
else.
C
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Jaydensmommy
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Posted: 06-13-07 19:55pm
I know this could sound completely out of
whack, but could it have been a
possibility of anything being put in your
drink? What were you drinking exactly?
How much? Was there use of recreational
drugs at all? Only reason I ask is
because such things can trigger other
effects in your body. Strand how it would
all come on like that soo fast.
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obkarman
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Thanks Everyone For Your Reply It Really Helps Posted: 06-13-07 23:38pm
Jaydensmommy I was drinking corona. There
were a couple parties for about 4 days
straight and I was drunk at all of them.
Then 1 day I felt the derealization for
about an hour and it went away. The next
day it got worse and by day 3 it lasted
all day, now its day 4 and its still here.
I feel on the edge. Cant even explain, its
like I have no feelings, Im not connected
to the earth, I hear music but its like im
not feeling it, even when Im around my
baby I feel disconected. All I do is sit
in my room all day, cry and sleep all day.
Im leaving to las vegas this friday with
my husband but I think about it and it
feels like im so depressed that i dont
want anything. I just feel so crappy. I
begin to wonder what if I have some mental
disease or Im seriously loosing my mind. I
can feel the anxiety. When I wake up in
the morning Im trembling and I feel very
weird.
When Im in my house I feel strange,
everything feels strange to me. The other
weird things are the burning feeling in my
face for these 4 days, and sometimes my
face just becomes very cold. I dont know
whats going on with me, at some points it
gets so scary that I wish I could die. I
dont know who to turn to and where to get
help. I had a great life until 20 years of
age and now this past year has been a
nightmare.
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obkarman
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Oh I Forgot to Add... Posted: 06-13-07 23:46pm
I feel nauseaous alot lately, dont really
feel like eating. And Im very confused.
Like I cant think clearly. Everything just
feels weird, as I am writing I feel like
my brain is all foggy and hazy. The weird
thing is that before this happened, any
little thing I noticed I would panic and
think that I have a tumor or something of
that nature but now its like I have no
feelings for anything. I used to always be
scared to die and now Im so tired and I
dread this so bad that I just want to die.
I dont know what to do. I take 1
clonazepam when my anxiety is bad and that
calms down but the weird out of the body
feeling and depression is there torturing
me. Oh and when my face gets the burning
feeling, it also gets like numb or tight.
not sure how to exactly explain it.
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edupat940
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Joined: 13 Jun 2007 Posts: 28
Posted: 06-14-07 07:34am
I did the same thing memorial day weekend.
I think thats what started my anxiety
again. Could it be withdrawl symptoms
from the alcohol?
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obkarman
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... Posted: 06-14-07 11:21am
Im not sure if it is withdrawal, but today
its day 5 of this craziness and Im feeling
terrible. I woke up nauseous and my face
is numb and burning, and I steel feel
detached. I
feel very very detached and freaked out.
Dont know how to handle it!!!
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sillyakchick
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Posted: 06-14-07 11:52am
I had a terrible bout with anxiety after
my second child was born, and I trly felt
like I was crazy! I thought for sure they
would lock me up. I saw a psychiatrist
and she put me on Ativan as needed. It
got to be very frequent when I would have
panic attacks, so she had me taking a half
tablet (.5 mg) three times a day. That
really helped. I very gradually decreased
my dosage after I started feeling better,
and then was bale to quit taking it all
together. Over christmas i was traveling
and had a short recurrence. I was
actually so anxious I threw up in the
train station while I was waiting to get
on board, because I was worried that i
hadn't packed my medications! I am pretty
much back to normal now, and just take the
Ativan as needed, whcih seems to happen
once every couple of months. Perhaps
there is a medication which would help
you. Have you seen a physician regarding
this lately?
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obkarman
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Joined: 13 Jun 2007 Posts: 7 Location: USA
... Posted: 06-14-07 18:36pm
I did see a doctor in sept of 06 when this
started. She said dont worry its only
depression. I felt so bad I was rushed to
the er 3 times and each time they did
tests and said everything is fine. So my
dr prescrimed effexor to which i had a bad
reaction. Then I tried lexapro which
started to help after 3 weeks and then
made things even worse. Basically im like
a guinea pig, they try to test different
drugs on me. Well up until this time i was
doing great without meds and just boom all
of the sudden its so bad that I just want
to curl up and die. Its like Im a zombie
with no feelings. I cant think clearly. Im
scared that i might say something wrong
when i talk. Im not sure whats going on
but I cant go on like this. These 5 days
my face burns for no reason and it feels
like its tightening up. I dont really feel
like eating, mostly nauseous, and I come
home and dont want anything. I search
online alot and all i find is that this
depersonalization or derealization is
basically incurable. I want to know is
that true or can it be cured and how??? If
it will be cured by anti-depressants Ill
be more than happy to start them, I do
have zoloft laying around in the closet
that I havent tried yet. I wonder will
they help with this or am I stuck like
this for life???????????????? THE THING
BOTHERING ME NOW IS THE BURNING IN THE
FACE, I WONDER IF SOMETHING ELSE IS WRONG.
BY THE WAYS THIS ALL STARTED WHEN I GOT A
MUSCLE SPASM IN MY BACK AND I STARTED
PANICKING AND SEARCHING THE INTERNET
BECAUSE OF THE TINGLING IT CAUSED IN MY
HEAD. THE INTERNET SAID THAT THOSE
SYMPTOMS WERE OF A BRAIN TUMOR AND SINCE
THEN I HAD A PANIC ATTACK AND BASICALLY
ENTERED A HELL HOLE. If anyone knows how
to exactly get out of this please
help!!!!!!!! My little 2 year old baby
needs me but sometimes I feel so horrible
that I feel that I cant be there for him
100%.
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obkarman
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Joined: 13 Jun 2007 Posts: 7 Location: USA
Followup Posted: 06-19-07 14:23pm
WELL ITS BEEN OVER A WEEK AND EVERY DAY I
GET WORSE AND WORSE. FOR THE PAST 2 DAYS
ALL IVE BEEN DOING IS CRYING NON-STOP. I
AM ON THE EDGE. I CALLED MY DR AND MADE AN
APPT AND MAYBE GET ON SOME MEDS THAT WILL
TAKE THE EDGE OFF. i WANTED TO ASK IF
ANYONE HAD DILATE PUPILS FROM ANXIETY, IVE
HAD THAT FOR THIS WHOLE TIME AND WAS
WONDERING COULD IT BE MORE THAN ANXIETY.
PLEASE REPLY IS YOU KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT
IT, ANYTHING HELPS!!!
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lintek
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Joined: 03 Aug 2006 Posts: 50 Location: New York
Posted: 06-22-07 07:24am
obkarman,
you sound like you may have some type of
hormonal thing going on or it could be
your pituitary gland, or adrenal glands.
our glands do very important jobs in our
system and if it's off kilter or something
wrong with them, they can make you feel
phsycially sick and make you feel like
you're going crazy.
an overactive thyroid gland can make you
feel the way you are feeling too. they can
test all these things by doing blood work
on you.
I would suggest you go to your
gynocologist to have your estrogen tested
too. maybe after having your baby set
something off.
yours sounds similar to premenstrul
syndrome but there's something that's more
than just pms. i just dont' know the name
of it. gynocologists would know what I'm
talking about. they have a medication for
this and it helps tremendously. talk to
your gyno about having a hormone test
performed.
clinical depression can also cause an
array of symtoms just like you're
suffering. you mentioned you have zoloft
somewhere in your cabinet.
don't take other peoples medication and
it's over a year old, throw it out.
the medication changes in strength when it
becomes old.
it can either become stronger or weaker.
also, don't take other peoples medications
that are rx'd for them because it may not
be good for you.
I happen to love zoloft and ever since I
started taking it, I've never felt as good
as I do now. prozac helped me for alittle
while but then my bad symtoms started
acting up again after a while, so my dr
put me on zoloft.
there are no side effects to zoloft for
me. It's amazing that I found a drug that
I don't have side effects to. that's why I
never liked to take the medications my dr
prescribed for me. they either caused me
constipation, made my hands tremble so
much that people would ask me if I was
alright, or it would give me cotton mouth
and I had a hard time swallowing food, or
it effected my libido.
zoloft does NONE of that to me. I"m now on
it for about 8 months and am greatful I am
now stablized.
I was a basket case and suffered for so
long thinking I could manage without
medication. I don't know why I fought the
concept of taking medication, I just did.
I'd either start a drug and then stop it.
I too felt like a guinea pig. but it's
common to try many many medications before
you find the right one that works best of
your body.
everyone's bodies are different and may
not react to it the same way.
did you suffer depression right after
having your baby? that's another type of
depression that woman need help for. they
have no effort to take care of their baby
and are listless and cry all the time.
it can last a long time too. some woman
have been hospitalized for it in a
psychiatric unit to get them stablized
because they can become suicidal.
If I were you, I'd go to the nearest ER
and tell them how you're feeling suicidal
and they can't turn you away. they will
give you the help you are so desperatly
needing.
I feel horrible for you that you are
suffering like this and no one is helping
you. you sound to me that you need help
immediatley and this is a crisis and can't
wait any longer. otherwise something may
happen to you and your child needs you.
you can make it, I promise you. it can
stop, the feelings of anxiety and
maddness. you sound like you have both
things going on. something physical and
something emotionally.
so please seek help and don't wait
anylonger.
also, talk to your dr about getting on the
zoloft. I love it.
maybe you will too.
good luck and PLEASE keep us updated on
what's going on.
I don't want anything to happen to you.
sincerely,
Linda
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obkarman
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Update Posted: 07-09-07 00:34am
Well I just wanted to update you guys on
how Im doing. As you all know I was
feeling severely terrible, on the edge. I
wanted to die it was so bad, but then I
decided to go and talk to my pastor and
have him pray for me. I talked to the
pastor for about an hour and we prayed.
The next day I felt like something had
been lifted off my chest. I no longer felt
depressed or the need to cry. Its been
about 2 weeks now and so far Im feeling
great. TO ALL THE PEOPLE OUT THERE
SUFFERING FROM ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION, IT
IS NOT A DISEASE!!! IT IS YOUR SOUL
SUFFERING AND YOU NEED TO TURN TO JESUS
AND LET HIM HEAL YOU. I GUARANTEE THAT IF
YOU TURN TO HIM AND REPENT HE WILL HEAL
YOU. OFCOURSE IT WONT HAPPEN OVER NIGHT,
BUT IT WILL HAPPEN. DONT LISTEN TO YOUR
DOCTORS WHEN THEY TELL YOU THAT YOU WILL
BE LIKE THAT FOR LIFE, THATS NOT TRUE.
TURN TO GOD AND HE WILL SHOW YOU THE WAY!
IM AM ACTUALLY IN A WAY THANKFULL FOR THIS
BECAUSE IT STOPPED ME FROM DOING BAD
THINGS AND TURNED ME TO GOD. IF ANYONE HAS
ANY QUESTIONS PLEASE FEEL FREE TO EMAIL ME
AND I WILL RESPOND. I KNOW IM NOT A
THERAPIST BUT IM SURE I CAN HELP BECAUSE I
WENT THROUGH THIS! SO I LOOK FORWARD TO
HEARING FROM PEOPLE AND I WILL KEEP YOU
POSTED. GOD BLESS!!!
BY THE WAYS I JUST WANTED TO REMIND YOU I
HAVE NOT TAKEN ANY KIND OF MEDICATION...
GOD IS THE WAY.
I LEAVE YOU WITH A VERSE FROM THE BIBLE, 2
Timothy 1:7: "For God hath not given us
the spirit of fear; but of power, and of
love, and of a sound mind."
ANXIETY IS NOT A SICKNESS, IT IS FEAR!!!
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lintek
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Joined: 03 Aug 2006 Posts: 50 Location: New York
Posted: 07-11-07 05:10am
dear obkar,
Praise God! I am so happy for you that you
are for feeling better and that you took
the courage to go and speak to your
pastor.
But you have to have faith. without
faith, it wouldn't work.
Fear is the biggest problem in mankind.
It's the cause of war and other behaviors
in ourselves such as jealousy. Thought
gone astray makes our minds chaotic and
can cause so much trouble.
For such a little organ, it does seem to
cause so much trouble for some of us,
doesnt' it?
I'm glad that prayer worked for you, but
in some people, they do need to absolutely
be on medication to save their lives.
anxiety is a very serious disease and
needs to be treated with medications at
times. there are different forms of
anxiety and some don't produce enough
seratonin to make the mind healthy.
all people who are on anxiety meds dont
have to stay on it for life in some cases.
just long enough for short term treatment
to get them back on their feet. a little
help so to speak.
say scizophrania for instance. do you
think that people with this condition
could actually pray? I don't think some
would even know what prayer is or who they
even are. in this case, prayer is not the
solution.
I'm not saying that prayer and God doesnt'
work. it's proven that prayer works and
scientists don't have an answer as to how
it does.
I do believe there is a God and that
prayer is very important in any faith.
but there is also a place for medication
in this world too. God has allowed the
scientists to come up with these
discoveries of medication.
God has allowed us to progress as quickly
as we have.
God is the answer to all things, but to
say he is the answer to not taking
medications can be down right dangerous. I
dont' think God would mean to stop taking
medication if it's there to help them.
both can be done at the same time. prayer
and medicine has it's place in the world.
people should never stop taking their
med's abruptly without consulting with
their doctor first. God may be your
doctor but he put the other dr's on this
earth to help us too.
I too was involved with church and with
prayer and God this and God that. over
zelousness can be an extreme too. it can
turn people away by the way we say things
too by the person sounding over
righteousness which turns people away.
all I'm saying is please be careful in how
you state things to people who are
clinically ill. they'll find any reason in
the world not to have to take their
medicine. I'm not saying that God can't
heal, so please don't mis understand what
I"m saying.
I'm happy for you and hope that you stay
happy for the rest of your life.