Obkarman,

I have had similar experiences and I can say that alcohol was a huge contributing factor in my anxiety/depression. Alcohol is a depressant which I forget about sometimes. Once I cut way back on the beer and coffee I got a lot better. I don't think you are going crazy just maybe going through some rough times. I also found out that my fear of anxiety fed my actual anxiety which led to most of those symptoms you descirbed. I had all of the symptoms you are having.

Have you ever tried to write down the circumstances that are bothering you. Not your symptoms but other portions of your life that you worry about.

Also, exercise helped me tremendously. Help me focus my energy on something else.


C

I know this could sound completely out of whack, but could it have been a possibility of anything being put in your drink? What were you drinking exactly? How much? Was there use of recreational drugs at all? Only reason I ask is because such things can trigger other effects in your body. Strand how it would all come on like that soo fast.

Jaydensmommy I was drinking corona. There were a couple parties for about 4 days straight and I was drunk at all of them. Then 1 day I felt the derealization for about an hour and it went away. The next day it got worse and by day 3 it lasted all day, now its day 4 and its still here. I feel on the edge. Cant even explain, its like I have no feelings, Im not connected to the earth, I hear music but its like im not feeling it, even when Im around my baby I feel disconected. All I do is sit in my room all day, cry and sleep all day. Im leaving to las vegas this friday with my husband but I think about it and it feels like im so depressed that i dont want anything. I just feel so crappy. I begin to wonder what if I have some mental disease or Im seriously loosing my mind. I can feel the anxiety. When I wake up in the morning Im trembling and I feel very weird. When Im in my house I feel strange, everything feels strange to me. The other weird things are the burning feeling in my face for these 4 days, and sometimes my face just becomes very cold. I dont know whats going on with me, at some points it gets so scary that I wish I could die. I dont know who to turn to and where to get help. I had a great life until 20 years of age and now this past year has been a nightmare.

I feel nauseaous alot lately, dont really feel like eating. And Im very confused. Like I cant think clearly. Everything just feels weird, as I am writing I feel like my brain is all foggy and hazy. The weird thing is that before this happened, any little thing I noticed I would panic and think that I have a tumor or something of that nature but now its like I have no feelings for anything. I used to always be scared to die and now Im so tired and I dread this so bad that I just want to die. I dont know what to do. I take 1 clonazepam when my anxiety is bad and that calms down but the weird out of the body feeling and depression is there torturing me. Oh and when my face gets the burning feeling, it also gets like numb or tight. not sure how to exactly explain it.

I did the same thing memorial day weekend. I think thats what started my anxiety again. Could it be withdrawl symptoms from the alcohol?

Im not sure if it is withdrawal, but today its day 5 of this craziness and Im feeling terrible. I woke up nauseous and my face is numb and burning, and I steel feel detached. I feel very very detached and freaked out. Dont know how to handle it!!!

I had a terrible bout with anxiety after my second child was born, and I trly felt like I was crazy! I thought for sure they would lock me up. I saw a psychiatrist and she put me on Ativan as needed. It got to be very frequent when I would have panic attacks, so she had me taking a half tablet (.5 mg) three times a day. That really helped. I very gradually decreased my dosage after I started feeling better, and then was bale to quit taking it all together. Over christmas i was traveling and had a short recurrence. I was actually so anxious I threw up in the train station while I was waiting to get on board, because I was worried that i hadn't packed my medications! I am pretty much back to normal now, and just take the Ativan as needed, whcih seems to happen once every couple of months. Perhaps there is a medication which would help you. Have you seen a physician regarding this lately?

I did see a doctor in sept of 06 when this started. She said dont worry its only depression. I felt so bad I was rushed to the er 3 times and each time they did tests and said everything is fine. So my dr prescrimed effexor to which i had a bad reaction. Then I tried lexapro which started to help after 3 weeks and then made things even worse. Basically im like a guinea pig, they try to test different drugs on me. Well up until this time i was doing great without meds and just boom all of the sudden its so bad that I just want to curl up and die. Its like Im a zombie with no feelings. I cant think clearly. Im scared that i might say something wrong when i talk. Im not sure whats going on but I cant go on like this. These 5 days my face burns for no reason and it feels like its tightening up. I dont really feel like eating, mostly nauseous, and I come home and dont want anything. I search online alot and all i find is that this depersonalization or derealization is basically incurable. I want to know is that true or can it be cured and how??? If it will be cured by anti-depressants Ill be more than happy to start them, I do have zoloft laying around in the closet that I havent tried yet. I wonder will they help with this or am I stuck like this for life???????????????? THE THING BOTHERING ME NOW IS THE BURNING IN THE FACE, I WONDER IF SOMETHING ELSE IS WRONG. BY THE WAYS THIS ALL STARTED WHEN I GOT A MUSCLE SPASM IN MY BACK AND I STARTED PANICKING AND SEARCHING THE INTERNET BECAUSE OF THE TINGLING IT CAUSED IN MY HEAD. THE INTERNET SAID THAT THOSE SYMPTOMS WERE OF A BRAIN TUMOR AND SINCE THEN I HAD A PANIC ATTACK AND BASICALLY ENTERED A HELL HOLE. If anyone knows how to exactly get out of this please help!!!!!!!! My little 2 year old baby needs me but sometimes I feel so horrible that I feel that I cant be there for him 100%.

WELL ITS BEEN OVER A WEEK AND EVERY DAY I GET WORSE AND WORSE. FOR THE PAST 2 DAYS ALL IVE BEEN DOING IS CRYING NON-STOP. I AM ON THE EDGE. I CALLED MY DR AND MADE AN APPT AND MAYBE GET ON SOME MEDS THAT WILL TAKE THE EDGE OFF. i WANTED TO ASK IF ANYONE HAD DILATE PUPILS FROM ANXIETY, IVE HAD THAT FOR THIS WHOLE TIME AND WAS WONDERING COULD IT BE MORE THAN ANXIETY. PLEASE REPLY IS YOU KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT IT, ANYTHING HELPS!!!

obkarman,
you sound like you may have some type of hormonal thing going on or it could be your pituitary gland, or adrenal glands. our glands do very important jobs in our system and if it's off kilter or something wrong with them, they can make you feel phsycially sick and make you feel like you're going crazy.

an overactive thyroid gland can make you feel the way you are feeling too. they can test all these things by doing blood work on you.

I would suggest you go to your gynocologist to have your estrogen tested too. maybe after having your baby set something off.

yours sounds similar to premenstrul syndrome but there's something that's more than just pms. i just dont' know the name of it. gynocologists would know what I'm talking about. they have a medication for this and it helps tremendously. talk to your gyno about having a hormone test performed.

clinical depression can also cause an array of symtoms just like you're suffering. you mentioned you have zoloft somewhere in your cabinet.
don't take other peoples medication and it's over a year old, throw it out.
the medication changes in strength when it becomes old.
it can either become stronger or weaker. also, don't take other peoples medications that are rx'd for them because it may not be good for you.

I happen to love zoloft and ever since I started taking it, I've never felt as good as I do now. prozac helped me for alittle while but then my bad symtoms started acting up again after a while, so my dr put me on zoloft.

there are no side effects to zoloft for me. It's amazing that I found a drug that I don't have side effects to. that's why I never liked to take the medications my dr prescribed for me. they either caused me constipation, made my hands tremble so much that people would ask me if I was alright, or it would give me cotton mouth and I had a hard time swallowing food, or it effected my libido.
zoloft does NONE of that to me. I"m now on it for about 8 months and am greatful I am now stablized.
I was a basket case and suffered for so long thinking I could manage without medication. I don't know why I fought the concept of taking medication, I just did. I'd either start a drug and then stop it.
I too felt like a guinea pig. but it's common to try many many medications before you find the right one that works best of your body.
everyone's bodies are different and may not react to it the same way.

did you suffer depression right after having your baby? that's another type of depression that woman need help for. they have no effort to take care of their baby and are listless and cry all the time.
it can last a long time too. some woman have been hospitalized for it in a psychiatric unit to get them stablized because they can become suicidal.

If I were you, I'd go to the nearest ER and tell them how you're feeling suicidal and they can't turn you away. they will give you the help you are so desperatly needing.
I feel horrible for you that you are suffering like this and no one is helping you. you sound to me that you need help immediatley and this is a crisis and can't wait any longer. otherwise something may happen to you and your child needs you.
you can make it, I promise you. it can stop, the feelings of anxiety and maddness. you sound like you have both things going on. something physical and something emotionally.
so please seek help and don't wait anylonger.
also, talk to your dr about getting on the zoloft. I love it.
maybe you will too.
good luck and PLEASE keep us updated on what's going on.
I don't want anything to happen to you.

sincerely,
Linda

Well I just wanted to update you guys on how Im doing. As you all know I was feeling severely terrible, on the edge. I wanted to die it was so bad, but then I decided to go and talk to my pastor and have him pray for me. I talked to the pastor for about an hour and we prayed. The next day I felt like something had been lifted off my chest. I no longer felt depressed or the need to cry. Its been about 2 weeks now and so far Im feeling great. TO ALL THE PEOPLE OUT THERE SUFFERING FROM ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION, IT IS NOT A DISEASE!!! IT IS YOUR SOUL SUFFERING AND YOU NEED TO TURN TO JESUS AND LET HIM HEAL YOU. I GUARANTEE THAT IF YOU TURN TO HIM AND REPENT HE WILL HEAL YOU. OFCOURSE IT WONT HAPPEN OVER NIGHT, BUT IT WILL HAPPEN. DONT LISTEN TO YOUR DOCTORS WHEN THEY TELL YOU THAT YOU WILL BE LIKE THAT FOR LIFE, THATS NOT TRUE. TURN TO GOD AND HE WILL SHOW YOU THE WAY! IM AM ACTUALLY IN A WAY THANKFULL FOR THIS BECAUSE IT STOPPED ME FROM DOING BAD THINGS AND TURNED ME TO GOD. IF ANYONE HAS ANY QUESTIONS PLEASE FEEL FREE TO EMAIL ME AND I WILL RESPOND. I KNOW IM NOT A THERAPIST BUT IM SURE I CAN HELP BECAUSE I WENT THROUGH THIS! SO I LOOK FORWARD TO HEARING FROM PEOPLE AND I WILL KEEP YOU POSTED. GOD BLESS!!!

BY THE WAYS I JUST WANTED TO REMIND YOU I HAVE NOT TAKEN ANY KIND OF MEDICATION... GOD IS THE WAY.


I LEAVE YOU WITH A VERSE FROM THE BIBLE, 2 Timothy 1:7: "For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind."

ANXIETY IS NOT A SICKNESS, IT IS FEAR!!!

dear obkar,
Praise God! I am so happy for you that you are for feeling better and that you took the courage to go and speak to your pastor.
But you have to have faith. without faith, it wouldn't work.
Fear is the biggest problem in mankind. It's the cause of war and other behaviors in ourselves such as jealousy. Thought gone astray makes our minds chaotic and can cause so much trouble.

For such a little organ, it does seem to cause so much trouble for some of us, doesnt' it?

I'm glad that prayer worked for you, but in some people, they do need to absolutely be on medication to save their lives.
anxiety is a very serious disease and needs to be treated with medications at times. there are different forms of anxiety and some don't produce enough seratonin to make the mind healthy.

all people who are on anxiety meds dont have to stay on it for life in some cases. just long enough for short term treatment to get them back on their feet. a little help so to speak.

say scizophrania for instance. do you think that people with this condition could actually pray? I don't think some would even know what prayer is or who they even are. in this case, prayer is not the solution.

I'm not saying that prayer and God doesnt' work. it's proven that prayer works and scientists don't have an answer as to how it does.

I do believe there is a God and that prayer is very important in any faith.
but there is also a place for medication in this world too. God has allowed the scientists to come up with these discoveries of medication.
God has allowed us to progress as quickly as we have.

God is the answer to all things, but to say he is the answer to not taking medications can be down right dangerous. I dont' think God would mean to stop taking medication if it's there to help them.
both can be done at the same time. prayer and medicine has it's place in the world.

people should never stop taking their med's abruptly without consulting with their doctor first. God may be your doctor but he put the other dr's on this earth to help us too.

I too was involved with church and with prayer and God this and God that. over zelousness can be an extreme too. it can turn people away by the way we say things too by the person sounding over righteousness which turns people away.

all I'm saying is please be careful in how you state things to people who are clinically ill. they'll find any reason in the world not to have to take their medicine. I'm not saying that God can't heal, so please don't mis understand what I"m saying.

I'm happy for you and hope that you stay happy for the rest of your life.

Blessings,

Linda