Hi, I'm a 17 year old male and I don't have much of a social life.
I only see my friends about once a month for about 3 hours and the rest of the time I spend in front of my computer, watching TV, doing some exercise etc...
The thing is that I'm not particularly sad, I just feel empty and I don't know what I want. I am so withdrawn from the real word that I feel like I have taken a liking to emotions such as sadness and loneliness, It's like a form of self-pity.
I have no suicidal thoughts whatsoever and I consistently feel thankful for everything I have. I have been looking for a job and have been turned down at least 10 times and, to a social hermit like me, 10 turn-downs is a lot.
My problem is that I can appreciate everything in my life on a conscientious level, but there is very little substance to my emotions.
My main problem at the moment is that I lack motivation. I think that my sedentary lifestyle is contributing to this cycle of emptiness.
Occasionally, I'll get bouts of happiness (often after going for a jog), but a lot of the time, I'm empty.
Ironically, instead of being sad as depression usually entails, I feel satisfied; so much so that my happiness depends on it; it's like my only source of my happiness.
I probably didn't mention this, but I finished school last year and I have never really connected with anyone, in the 4 years that I have been at this school, I haven't become emotionally attached to anyone.
Sometimes, I feel like even my friends aren't really my friends because of that lack of emotional attachment. They are REALLY kind to me... Way more than I deserve according to the saying "What goes round comes back around."
I think that every problem I have depends on me getting a job... I feel like getting a job at Macdonald's could end up marking the happiest day of the past 4 years of my life... I applied and I REALLY hope they employ me... At first, I underestimated how difficult it was to get a job and the lower I go on the corporate ladder, the less I think of myself...
I really wish that I could establish and maintain an emotional connection with a bunch of friends, but it's not happening... Maybe it's because males are unemotional. I wish I could have a girlfriend but my social anxiety is stopping me from doing so. I have never had a girlfriend in my life so all I got for emotional discourse is my mum, but it's getting boring a predictable and it only goes so deep... I don't want my mother to think that I'm not happy with my current state of being.
that sucks and i know how you feel, i had friends but they werent like real ones like a shoulder to cry on i guess you could say, i have trust issues so i never opened up to anyone and still learning the process with my husband, personally i thought i would besingle the rest of my life and never have kids but im happily married with 2 wonderful children.
Getting a job is hard to do, also you gotta be more social and open in order for them to want to hire you, so they know your a good worker and are good being around people. Most jobs u need to be pretty social at. I think getting ajob is the first step, u meet people at work , possibly hang out with them.
excersizing is good for depression it helps get you out of that slump so i think it would be wise to jog everyday maybe in th emornings to start your day off good.
Im not sure but therapy might help to teach you to be a more open person and express your emotions better. Get rid of the social anxiety you feel around people as well, so its something to look into.
Look i exactly understand what u feels coz i,ve passed that period after quiting my job, the majority of my friends are busy at work or marriage life .. etc
Emptiness makes u feel that you are unmotivated to do anything, and days become the same, everymorning you wake up you feel so hollow coz there,s no specific goal n your life.. i felt that after i left my job
i became kinda introverted, staying the whole day in my room infront of my PC and that made me lose my connection with ppl.. i felt that i became connected online but disconnected in real life and its horrible..