I have bipolar disorder which actually
caused my wife and I to get a divorce last
Ocotber. She said she couldn't deal with
it. I can't blamer her. At the same time,
she was cheating which I later found out.
Now I'm in a situation where I met a
wonderful girl and we were dating for
about 5 months but knew each other for a
few years. Here in the past two weeks I
don't know what happened. I was out of
meds for a week and I accused her of
cheating just like my ex wife did. Let's
just say that wasn't good. We haven't seen
each other or talked on the phone. The
only communication we have is txt
messaging. We did talk on the phone a few
times and I did get that she loved me,
missed me but needed time. I don't
understand what time is. Keep in mind, I
bought this beautiful girl a wedding ring
last week. I feel like my world has ended.
Not only did I lose her for now but I
don't have my kids except for on the
weekend. My ex won't answer her phone half
of the time so I can talk to them during
the week. I'm sitting at work trying to
figure out how I can put myself in danger
on the way home. I feel that if something
horrible happened then maybe I will find
out who cares and who doesn't. Yes, today
I wanted to die. I thought about how I
would do it and when. Please help me get
these feelings out of me.
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mrsbuzski
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Jun 2007 Posts: 103 Location: U.S.A. -- Illinois
S.o.s. Posted: 06-15-07 04:06am
Hey Dude!
I hope your still alive!
Wake up and smell the roses!
Find Jesus!
What else? If it's over with your X for
sure, call your special friend and tell
her your sorry.
Then call your kids, and tell them the
same thing.
Then be joyful and thankful for the
foresight to all this!
