Hello whoever is reading this,

I had sex with my girlfriend yesterday....actually it was today since it was around midnight. We were using a condom and apparently it had a hole in it. I found out after I ejaculated inside of her. It was weird because I didn't feel much in the condom (we both came at the same time) so I got scared and pulled it out and hurried to pull it off of my penis. Sure enough there was a hole a bit off to the side, but I feel that doesn't matter since a lot the sperm obviously escaped. Afterwards, she went to the restroom and said that right away she had stuff come out when she sat down. I asked what color it was but she said she didn't really look. Shortly afterwards she had to go to the bathroom again.

I am so worried right now that I am having breathing problems. I didn't mean for this to happen....then again who ever does with a condom on? She said that she had started birth control 5 days ago and took the pill every day, very promptly, at 5:00 PM (the pill she uses is called tri-sprintec, if that helps you). Her instructions tell her to not be sexually confident or active until about a week. Prior to this unexpected incident, she complained of having sore breasts so it's obvious that the medicine has already taken effect. She also mentioned, in attempts to comfort me, that ovulation should occur in about 2 days which would also be the point at which she reached a week of the pill's use, but this doesn't mean anything to me since I'm so worried and I feel so stupid for doing this. I wanted to be as safe as I could, but I failed...

I have no idea what to do about this. She tells me not to be so worried, but I can't help it. I couldn't imagine of getting an abortion because I would never want to destroy a life, especially one that I could've created. I know it wouldn't be the end of the world and that we love each other no matter what, but countless people at school and our parents would be angry with us and never talk to us again (not to mention her dad killing me). I know it's wrong, but I do not want my parents to know about this.....just as everyone who goes through this mess. Right now is the period of impending doom for me.....I'm worried enough for the both of us and I'm passing out from time to time. I cannot handle a child right now..we are both 17. I'd probably destroy the development of this child's life even if we didn't get an abortion because we simply aren't ready.

So now you know I'm another stupid teenager who couldn't wait until marriage, but I do not regret making love to her at all. We love each other more than anyone will ever know even at this age, and it will always be that way. I just want some help; an answer from someone to ease my mind. I know I should be worried because things are never too sure with these situations. Please help me....I feel like God hates me right now and I need answers to help keep me from ending my life. Give me some odds or some ways to prevent this. I've been reading about ECPs....they sound like a good idea, but I'm a year too young to go out and buy her one...hell, I don't even know if or where I could buy one...I live in Omaha, NE. Please help me.......please.