Oh Sigh

You can get through it, you can get through anything you put your mind to. I was scared to go back to school after my divorce and being 10 years after I had dropped out of high school. Part of me almost back out but another part of me (the part that thinks about my boys future) told me I had to do it for the boys and I's future. Once I got my foot in the door and started to do the work I relized I do have it in me to get good grades, I sucked in high school. I am now going into my second year of college and for the most part I enjoy it, it is hard work and some days I feel like giving up but I just keep going forward knowing that the ending results will be gratifying.

So when you feel scared, or have the feeling of this is not for you think of baby Rowan and the future for the two of you. What school will provide for the two of you in the end. I wish you all the luck to you and your baby girl and you will get through it, hold your head high and have positive thoughts.

Good luck,

Heather

i love hearing about your life lol

you're so funny, a normal person would have thrown that cell phone in the trash, you threw it off of a bridge .

Lol at throwing it off a bridge!

We've all made mistakes. You'll do great! You seem so strong and like you have it all together. It may not be easy, but it will be something you can smile about after it's all done.

When it seems like it's really tough, just remind yourself that you do have options. You have the choice to go back to school. You have a future that you are looking forward to and the opportunities and freedom to choose what kind of future you and your daughter will have. When you think of it that way you feel proud of yourself for making those choices and not taking the easy road but challenging yourself because you know it will make your life better in the end. Just keep your head high and when you are around those annoying people remember that you have a goal that you have set for yourself and you aren't going to let petty things stop you from acheiving them. My mom struggled through university and two jobs when we were kids and I have always been so proud of her for doing that. Now, I will have to return to university after my baby is born and do the same, but I know I can do it because my mom did with 4 kids, not just one. And you can do it too, and your daughter will know that and be proud of you when she gets old enough to realise how hard you worked to give her a better life.

yes, it's definitely not an option to not do it. but the thought of when the time comes to go back is still bringing me down. I'm not looking forward to the same, boring, irritating thing every single day. Where every minute drags right on. I definitely need to become 100 percent independent, for Rowan. To tell the truth, the future really freaks me out. When i think about it, sometimes I have no idea how I'm going to make it through university with a baby, and be able to afford it. I get really scared when I think about it. so i don't, well, i try not to too often. i think i can work my butt off, but what if that isn't enough. blegggh

Thanks for the replies!