ive been depressed for many years now, not
to the point of a lot of people here but
its enough to completly take over my
life.
firstly i want to ask, does depression
make you tired all the time, im fairly
healthy an d exercise 4 times a week,good
diet but i do smoke. i dont drink as much
as i used to and i dont take drugs any
more, i only took drugs for about a year,
ive been depressed way before that.
i think im the kinda person who brings it
on themselvs if that makes sense,
sometimes i hate going out in public, im a
fairly big man(not fat) and i think it
threatens other men so the minute i walk
in anywhere im stared at and commented on
straight away.
for example i went ot local pub to meet
new people with flatmate(i recently moved
country) and i got on grand with some but
these 2 men for no reason i didnt even
talk to started commenting on me and
insulting me. it wrecked me i felt like
crap all night then. i didnt even blink an
eyelid at them.
I have a look on my face that tells the
wrong story about me:-)
but well before this ive had problems with
my looks, i always look tired like im
stoned and as everyone knows looks count
nig time this day and age so people
comment and mock me, its been happening
since i was very young like since 10 years
old and slowly that over the years has
been eating me inside.
the thing is i get beautiful women and
never had a problem, women do actually go
for personality
but in saying that i feel like i cant get
women or make friends without a big
struggle of proving myself, some people
just get friends so easily but i find it
such an uphill struggle to do it, its
killing me and my energy.
but since i found out i have hpv ive been
ruined, so many missed chances with women,
its ruioning me. also if i got with a
woman i found it hard to get an erection,
most times i didnt so i had to make
excuses and run. this has been happening
for a long while and its all built up now
and im so depressed.
i think im so ugly and useless, i can even
look straight when i walk out in public ,
i get panic attaks and my paranoia is
through the roof. i constantly every
second have this horrible tense feeling in
my stomach.i really dont know what to do
i dont see a future for me and i could
only see this getting worse.
any help appreciated, im really down and i
shouldnt be,im still young(mid 20's) i
should be living life and im not,im slowly
rotting away. every time it seems positive
someone/something puts me right back down
again
sounds like u need to get some
professional help, and yes depression can
make u tired all the time,alot of people
with depression tend to sleep alot. Sounds
like u also have some sorta social anxiety
. I think that i get similar looks when i
go out because i do not walk around with a
smile on my face ever, so people kinda
assume im in a bad mood so they will not
talk to me. I think seeing a counselor or
therapist will help, they can help you
understand your thoughts and emotions etc.
SO you can like yourself. you dont want
depression to take over your life.
