I think i'm depressed. People have told I am. I have not been clinically proven. BUT I believe I am the main source of my pain not any one else. It is all my wrong doing. I can't fix any of it. I spend more time dwelling on the past then worring about the present and the future. The future is abit different cause I worry about it but then I end up worring about the past agian so its like a 50/50 thing. I don't know what to do, I cant take all the things I have done, said or made plans for back. It just sickens me sometimes thinking about it. I see everyone else living it up the way I had planned/thought I would be doing, basically everyone else is living up my dream and I as well a friend of mine are not living the dream (we both had same dream with some variations here and there but most of it the same). Like I said it makes me sick and in the end I beleive that I am the main source of my pain.