i myself did not have an abortion, but, my youngest daughter did. It was not easy for her, but, I gave her all the support she needed. She did very well and we have never talked about it since. She now has a beautiful girl and is very happy. Don't think about the past. It's over and can't be changed. Look to the future. For whatever reason, it was meant to happen. All things in life are planned for a reason that only god knows. Believe me. Please do not blame yourself and get on with your life. This may have been a blessing in disguise.