Even if he coughs up blood, you cannot get HIV from touching the blood unless you have open sores or cuts on your hand.

I have a hang nail on my finger but the red spot was real little but now I am wondering what if I had wiped it on my face when I was crying, and that dumb on call therapist made me so mad I am going to report her to my therapist I am so angry and stupid why didn't I distance myself from him in the first place I am about to die I know that I am I am so scared to death man I am so stupid .

you make it sound so bad... my mom has aids but she doesnt want any of us [kids] to tell anyone because she explained if anyone knew they would be just like you are!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I am not trying to make it sound bad I am hust scared to death that now I may have it

I looked at your past paranoid posts.

... scared to death of door handles
... scared to death of being poked by needles on a subway
... scared to death of public washrooms
... scared to death of a pen handed to you by a police officer
... scared to death of a dog leash that touched the ground!!!!

Every time you post you're scared to death you've contracted a disease/virus (usually .H.I.V) from something innocuous.

Get professional help. If your therapist is hanging up on you, get a new therapist or get into an in-patient program.

I think the people in the .H.I.V forum especially have had enough of your paranoia.

I am not trying to offend anyone who has HIV I use to share shoes with my cousin w/o thinking about HIV I am so sorry if I offended anyone I am just so upset rightnow so I am so upset that I want to find a cure for this disease so bad I can't wait till that day comes. I was getting better I started to touch doorknobs w/o worrying and everything everybody could see that I was doing better until this incident. I love my cousin but I just do not want to catch that virus I got me a home access test at home I prbly test at 6 weeks to ease my mind I am trying to think about my future but everytime I do that HIV pops up in the picture last november I had a dream that I had contracted HIV from blood flying in my eye that is why I am so scared I look at that dream as a warning that is why I try to distance myself from my cousin. O yea and he was the one in the dream I remeber that night waking up sweating saying to myself it is just a dream hopefully I am right I pray every second of the day please let me get better please help my mental and keep me safe from all diseases and to let me live a healthy life. I would like to find a new therapist but I do not have any money at all I only pay 5 dollars a session.

You can't get HIV from sharing shoes, so you can share your cousins shoes all you want with no worries.

Check out some of the mental health forums in here if you haven't already. They might be of some help to you. This is more of a mental issue somewhat related to HIV than an HIV issue. So people in the mental health forums might understand what you are going through a little bit more and be able to offer you tips and advice.

Ok I will check it out thank you by the way I will try not to post anything else I pray and hope that I am fine.Thank you Llewellyn you have been there since day one I think that you are a well educated person thank you very much for keeping me posted I know that I be getting on your nerves well hell I am startng to get on my own nerves with me being a nervous reck and all of these body aches that I am getting. LOL but truly thank you I think that you should get some kind of award or something.

... Scared to death of door handles
... Scared to death of being poked by needles on a subway
... Scared to death of public washrooms
... Scared to death of a pen handed to you by a police officer
... Scared to death of a dog leash that touched the ground!!!!

HAHA!!! Yeah, you need help pronto..
My brother in law has HIV and i'm not scared one bit to touch him, eat from his plate/cup whatever..You need to get help and get the damn facts straight..jeez, you'd think by now with all the info out there and orginazations's, people would have some sense and knowledge of HIV/aids..sheesh..and IMO those comments do offend people..Read some info on the net..

I am kind of over it now a little bit I am not posting anymore I know my fears are irrational I never been a cruel person towards HIV my cousin haves HIV and I used to watch him cry because some people and some of the family never wanted to hug him his mom would spray the phone down with lysol HIV used to be the last thing that would come to my mind with him. It's just something in my head still

It is not a matter of her not having the facts. She does have the facts and does know about HIV, but she has an irrational fear. That's what a phobia is. A lot of people have a phobia of the dark, or snakes, or spiders even though they know those things usually will not hurt them. Some people have such an extreme phobia of those things that they can't even be in the same room as a fake spider or snake.

Are you starting to notice that your therapy is working more now, or is it still about the same?

I don't know I have my up's and down's I still don't go out as much my family think that it's just everything that's happen to me in the past has build up and cause me to have this phobia. My therapist said it's maybe because I was babyfied as a child and still is babyfied.

Helleo everyone it's me again well I have a problem again see I have this new job as a front desk associate at a hotel and the problem is that I work on the day of my therapy and my therapist can not reschedule her schedule around that is the only time and day that she is aviable for me. and for a minute I was getting better but now I think that I am getting worst again just recently I was at a hair salon and this man that is on crack rung the bell mu stylist had told me to get the bell well I had got up and let him in real quickly I mean I push the door open real fast and than she said you shouldn't of let him in he is a crackhead. I thought that he work there because when I was in the back getting my hair dried he came back there walking past me I got so scared thing of all the what if's. what if he stuck me with a needle and I didn't feel it or what if blood got on me or something I got so scared to death I kin of want to quit my job to seek therapy again because I feel if I miss therapy that I am going to go down hill again and I am trying to go back to school again so that I can keep my mind occupied.

I had not seen you in a while, so I figured your therapy was going well. That's too bad that your schedule conflicts with your therapist's. Is there any way you can see a different therapist? You could ask your therapist if she could refer you to someone else.

I think that I could but I really like my therapist, I really do when I come out the office I feel better sometime she help me to see that my fears are irrational and I would really be upset to switch to another therapist I don't know what to do.

WOWWW that kid has a point in worryin soo much its ok he might not have a clue of how he can get infected ... but wow thats wat everyone would go through because its his life that;s at risk not those other people sayin he's crazy.. mmm well honestly u take it to the extreme.... shoes, clothes or any object he uses shouldnt affect you.. are if u touch wat ever he touches.. as long as u dont get is blood in ur blood, u should b ok