I lost my sister 9 years ago and i have the hardest time. I feel as if i am starting to grieve now. I am very depressed over her death. I am under doctors care for depression but i talk to a few friends about it because they lost a parent or sibling. I found that people who lost someone real close understand a lot better what you are going through. Sometimes you can find free therapy from your state. I know a lot of hospitals give free help sometimes. Group sessions are good. I write a lot of poemsand it helps me with my emotions. Its very hard to deal with the death of family. If you need me im here for you.