Sorry for the long post, but i'm very confused and could use your help.

I have been diagnosed by every doctor as having anxiety, depression and ocd tendencies. I have never seen an ent or neurologist, nor have I had an mri.

Since 2003 I have been on the following medications. I have included everything I believe:

prilosec, nexium and zantac for gerd. Celexa, xanax, paxil, cymbalta, buspirone, clomipramine, clonazepan, mirtazipine, zoloft, zyprexa, seroquel, prozac, welbutrin, risperdal and toprol xl for depression and anxiety with little to no help and I believe they actually make me worse. Ambien, lunesta, simply sleep, tylenol pm and melatonin for sleep. I currently take 20 mg of lexapro, 10 mg of ambien, 0.5 mg of risperdal and 20 mg of prilosec.

The longest I have been off medicine since 2003 was for like two months. Family and friends tell me I was never like this before I started taking medicine and only started taking it as I had a lot going on in my life at the time. When I wasn't on medication I was fine unless I went out and drank. I would wake up couldn't remember like 15 minutes of the night, think the worst case scenario and it would become so debilitating that I would go get put on some medication to get through it.

My symptoms:

dizzy, headaches, sweats, my head feels so weird, my eyes feel like they are crossed and almost bulging out of my head. I can't sleep well at all and when I take the ambien to sleep, within 5 minutes I am so dizzy and out of it I can't even walk. I can't remember very much anymore, irratible, my left ear always hurts, sometimes I can hear a heart beat and it usually gives me a sore throat. My body feels like it's going a million miles a minute, off balance, equilibreum feels off and if I am on something high off the ground or a merry go round, I get so dizzy. I also cannot do the things I used to without feeling so tired. I feel like I have pressure behind my eyes, like blood is not getting to my head or something.

Any ideas???? Am I going crazy or could this be something else? I had tubes and my tonsils out when I was young. I just can't do this anymore.