hey yall...i am new to this, and i am really upset...i dont even know why im doing this...but im hoping atleast someone is reading!? i live in SC... my bf and i broke up today, and i am upset. weve been living together for almost 2 yrs now, and he has been very abusive, mentally an physically....i told him to get out, and now that hes gone im a wreck. I have been comtempating suicide for about 4 months now, he has made me feel like i am so ugly, and so awful, and he said noone will ever want me now. I feel like i was so cute when i moved here, and have people telling me this, but he says have they seen you recently?! and i just feel so awful...i am moving back to my friends and family soon,but he moved out today, and i feel absolutly worthless. i take adderall and it makes me feel better temporarily...and i really do feel like it helps me...i had a panic attack recently....could adderall be the reason of my new anxiety? please someone help me, i want this loser back, for some reason, why?! im going crazy is addrerall helping me or hurting me?! HELP! i think im rally depressed, and it is the only thing that givrs me energy to live.