That's great that you are trying therapy. How long have you been in therapy? Keep in mind that it usually takes a little while to work.

I been in it for like 1mth and some days now but it's still not working at all instead of me getting better I am getting worst I fear going to work everyday because I have to deal with the public and today I had a serious panic attack where I thought blood was flying in my mouth and when I forgot to look at my hands I started to think blood was on them and today some customer was handing me wade up paper to throw away and I was thinking what if there a needle in the paper and it had stuck me

Therapy often does make things seem worse before they get better because it kind of bring things to the surface. You have to bring it all to the surface before you can learn how to deal with it. One month is still pretty recent. I hope you have luck with it before too long.

Why do you think you have these irrational fears? Do you think talking about things here makes you feel better or does it worry you even more?

I don't really want to tell people because I don't want them to think that I am crazy or something I am so tired of crying all the time worrying about the what if's and I have a boyfriend who is always there for me and I just keep thinking that I have something and I do not want to effect him at all

relax you work at wendy's not at butchershop

I know I am getting better slowly but surely Hopefully someday I will be able to run in a big crowd again

See I do not know if it's my mind playing tricks on me on what but just recently I was at my job cleaning the dining room and getting trays and than I had rung up a customer and while I was getting him some water I had saw some red liquid on the mouth of the cup but the water that I was pouring inside the cup for the customer had rinse it away and now I am worried to death of what it was I keep thinking what if it was blood it could had been fruit punch that had drip inside the cup I don't know why am I keep noticing red things that looks like blood I do not know when or when not to be worry, I had missed my therapy session his week due to car problems and need to talk to someone immdiately I am now thinking what if it came off my hands but I had check my hands and didn't see anything on them at all.