I understand where you are coming from. You can't seem to allow yourself to experience good things in life due to feeling guilty if you do.

Been there, done that (and still do at times).

What has helped me along with medication and talking to psychologist when needed, is getting involved in a support group. Others there can tell you what they are going through (which makes you feel better because you realize you aren't alone in all of it), and tell you what has worked to help them through the tough times. Maybe what they have done would work for you too.

Unfortunately for me, my depression and anxiety is probably a life-long thing. It's all a matter of keeping it under control and getting help when it gets a bit out of control.

Good luck.

Solo75

those feelings sound to familiar to me. I also suffer from mild depression. I know exactly how you feel, one moment i'm happy and all of a sudden I feel this guilty feeling about being happy. This is the worst decease you can ever develop because as you we have no control. I must say for me it comes and goes I would spend 3 months fine then it all comes back. I'm not taking medicine though I think I should start.

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are you taking medicine?

This is kind of how I feel. It gets really bad in the morning and I get so much anxiety about things I sometimes start to shake a little. The weird thing is after I experience what I had anxiety for, most of the time it wasn't as bad as it seemed. I just wish I could get rid of those feelings. I also suffer from depression, this being my second episode and 9 years ago my first.

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This sounds way too familiar. I am always worrying about something, or somebody. Even when things are going well, I worry that it is too good to be true. Are you on any medication? Sometimes that might help. I think a support group of some sort is a good idea too. It definitely helps to talk to other people who are going through the same kinds of things and get advice from them and just know that you are not alone.
I always feel guilty too about stuff that is beyond my control, but I guess I am just trying to save the world. Yikes!

Good luck

I have been suffering from depression, anxiety and guilt since the age of 13. I feel my life has been robbed by these conditions and this makes the depression worse. I've lost friends, family members and it is affecting my work. I' m 35 and feel like I just want it all to end. I get so jealous when I see others who can laugh and be happy because as much as I try nothing, noone makes me happy. I've tried numbing my feelings through prescription medication, and punishing myself through men who used me and left. I find peace only at night when the worry and guilt leave me alone. Noone seems to understand me and I am becoming hopeless, even medication does not work anymore. My life is getting worse and worse, I am currently involved with a man who treats me like gold and has put up with more than he should but I don't love him the way he loves me, and thus my guilt has gotten worse, it is all I think about, I dont and cant hurt him so I continue seeing him so hes happy, I feel too guilty to kill myself or I would and have tried. Please give me some hope.

I am scared to be happy. Everytime I try to be happy something bad does happen. As long as I am sad I am prepared for it and I have no disruption of my life, misery status quo.