Okay, I was going to post this before but my mind kind of went blank and I couldn't think of how to describe things I've experienced.

My question is could I possibly be schizophrenic? I have suspected the possibility for a couple of years now and realized I've had 'symptoms' from an early age (around 7)
(and I know, the best way to find out is to see a dr, so please don't say it)


I often think that people/things are out to get me, plotting against me, spying on me, that others can read my mind, that I'm thinking out loud... more things



Some examples:
People out to get me- I often think people are trying to poison me with food/drinks. I've thought this since I was about 11. Just the other day I made coffee at work and someone asked me if they could finish off the pot or if I wanted them to make more if they did...My first thought was 'They want to finish the coffee because they know I'll be the only one to drink it if they make more so they want to put something with the coffee in the filter to poison me' so I got to the coffee pot before them, finished it off, then made more myself.

Things out to get me- When I was 12, I had gotten home from school and heated myself up something to eat using the microwave. The microwave went off, I took my food out then before I even closed it, it started playing this really creepy music so I grabbed a huge knife ran into a far corner of my backyard and stayed there until someone else got home.


Spying on me- When I was about 9 I started thinking there were microphones/cameras everywhere to spy on me. In the air vents in my house, in the shower drains (to the point I often keep one foot over shower drains even now while I'm showering and when I can I'll close my air vents) I spent a lot of time in my closet from 9-13 because it had no windows or air vents.


Reading my mind- I'll try to just not think when I think someone is doing this or I'll think derogatory thoughts to them. Or I'll put a kind of mind sheild throughout my body so my thoughts cant get out and other peoples nosy minds can't get in.

Thinking out loud- When I think I've thought out loud (my thoughts projected out loud, not spoken) I usually kind of panic at first because I hear it out loud but I'm not sure if anyone else did and I'm not sure if I said it out loud physically. Those times, if it wasn't something rude, but a question, I'll just ask it out loud. Sometimes people will say things like 'You just asked that 3 seconds ago!'. But if it's something rude that I think I thought or said out loud, I'll just wait to see everyones response. If they don't react then I just assume it didn't happen.


More:
Seeing things other people don't seem to- (this is not the only time, but a good example) When I was in science class when I was about 12, My teacher was talking and a long trail of smoke came out of his mouth in a line about 4 feet long and it kind of danced around then disappeared into the wall. I looked around the class to see if anyone else was noticing it but they all looked normal.

Speech- Sometimes my speech is kind of disorganized or just makes no sense to people. Something I do a lot is switch letters with words/in sentances or everything will just come out jumbled, like one big blur of a word or just like a bunch of words that don't make sense. An example, a few days ago I had asked someone if they had any tylin or aspirinol. Jumbled example- (Do you have the cup) Do youavegup. That happens more when I'm talking fast, but not always. and sometimes I just completely lose my train of thought and will end up just stopping mid-sentence or in a conversation.

I'm also mixed-handed.


There's more but I'm kind of tired of typing and that's a lot to read, so I'll stop for now.