Hi, Mark.
Welcome here. You are capable of doing a
lot of things, even if you can't seem that
clearly. You seem to be confused by a few
things, but you'll find a light, sooner or
later. Worrying i snormal and I'd sya it's
even important to be worried sometimes,
but you shouldn't take that very
seriously, ok?
Don't you have any kind of hobbies?
Any thing you need, pm at anytime, ok?
Good luck!