the End of My Life

Yeah, this is my firs and last topic... I became member just to give u some advices, and to tell my story, bc no-one can understand me. Im 16 years, boy... Last summer, summer 2006 i was over weighted, like 103 kg on 180 cm... i felt bad bc the persone i loved the most, told me that im fat... i knew it b4 but i never felt that lonely... first i felt into depression... i started going by foot on a long term destinations and i lost some pounds, but then when i was loosing some weight i thought that if i do not eat i'll lose more... which is absolute true... By october i was 90... for one month i lost 13 kg... i was more self confedential, i felt awesome... i wanted to be 73-74 kg(kilos), and when i came to that border, i tryed to eat normaly again, but i couldnt... b4 this i was starving for days, till i pass out... i went to the doctor, he said that my health is terible, which was, i had blood problems(high leucocites)... and when i tryed to eat, i couldnt... i was spitting it out... still i cant, i feel terible, awfull... im in a such big depression, im scared too bc i think my life will end up soon, i have so many health problems, that barely every week im apsent at school... and my hair losed it quality... its even falling... i lost 47 kilos for 3,5 months... im not proud of it, at all... i just wanted to say, that now i realise that we are beautifull by the way we are given, and that we never should decide to go on diets and so... im listening now to Sia - Breathe me... tears r runing on my face... i neded a confession... and i do not want anyone on this world to feel like me, its such bad feeling... so pls do not do this, u dont want to bi in my skin

p.s-sorry about bad english, its just im from south Europe...