That's the only word I can think of to
describe what happens to me every so-so
months.
It's extremely hard to explain, so I'll
try my best.
My body shuts down, completely motionless,
my eyes work but I usually end up staring
at something. I get this excited feeling
in my stomach, sometimes like I have to
throw up but only if I just ate, and start
thinking REALLY weird thoughts.
And by REALLY weird thoughts, I mean stuff
from dreams I don't remember prior, or
subconscious thoughts. Really abstract
things and it's just so hard to explain,
I'm terribly sorry, I know this is vague.
To try and provide an example,
Just 10 minutes ago I was on the phone
with my significant other, and while
talking perfectly normal a color on my
computer screen caught my eye. I started
staring at it and my body shut down, so I
was just staring, and all these random
abstract thoughts came into my head. I was
still talking, trying to explain to him
what was happening and I tried to shake
myself to get my mind out of the set it
was in, but that didn't help. In like a
minute, it went away, and my man managed
to say:
"I'm really worried about you"
These usually come for about 1-4 days
every 4 months? It seems? Usually before
menstruation but sometimes just whenever.
I've also been stessing incessantly about
being pregnant when I know I'm probably
not. I hope not, anyways.. (I've been
tired all the time lately, and urinating
more frequently than usual, but the
chances that I could've gotten pregnant
are so slim I'm beginning to think maybe
the urinating and fatigue is all in my
mind) Augh..
If anyone, anyone has any idea what's
happening to me.. or any advice for me,
I'd really REALLY appreciate any help. By
the way, I'm 16 years old.
Joined: 06 May 2006 Posts: 296 Location: Caldwell, Idaho
Posted: 05-16-07 00:14am
it could be possible anxiety. Not for sure
of course but it sounds like symptoms of
anxiety. Have you spoke to a doctor about
your symptoms? If not maybe you can talk
to a doc. and see what he might suggest.
Good luck. Heather
