Hello.
Welcome to this forum. I hope you can get some help from here or at least that you get comfort in sharing your situation.
It is very hard for someone to overcome an eating disorder or a possible eating disorder alone, because there will be loads of ghosts inside your head.
If you wnat to stop and if you recognize that you have a problem, you're one step closer to getting healthy again.
Seeking counselling or therapy is the best way, if you can afford it. So, if you can, seek a doctor and he or she will help you getting through this, ok?
Meanwhile, you can always talk to us.
PM me if you want to, as well, ok?
Cheers and good luck