* I fixed up this post a bit and put it here, I figured it fit better.*

So a little while ago I posted about the problems I was having with my ex.
He had attempted suicide and caused serious damage and so on.
Well he recovered and got out... I talked to him briefly once or twice, but it was hard not to call and check everyday.
He did continue to phone me and tell me how much he loved me and so on , but I made it very clear that even though I cared very much about him there would never be a relationship between us and all I wanted was for him to get help for his mental issues and for his anger and violence

so we cut ties.It's been bugging me a lot ( I guess in a way I missed talking to him , even after all the bull )
but I wasn't letting it really eat at me until today. I found out he's seeing somebody else.
When I heard that it was like someone kicked me in the face.
I know I said there was no us and never would be, and it's not even the fact that he's with someone else that is hurting me , it's how fast he moved on.
It's the fact that he put me through hell and back because "he loved me so much"
he had me scared to death he was gonna die and I blamed myself because he said it was over me.
And then within two weeks he's over it?
I don't want him for myself ... I just don't get how he could put me through all this stress and drama while i'm pregnant with his child and then just move on.
Half the reason I even still dealt with him was because I pitied him , I was scared of what he would do if I bailed I was worried about him but if I had known he would get over it this fast I wouldn't have put myself through everything.
Thus guy was very abusive for a while, but also had his good moments ... And I know i'm so dumb for sticking by that but it was exactly that I was stuck ... And you shouldnt ever judge a situation like that until your in it. Leaving is a lot easier said than done.

It just kills me that he's over it all in 2 weeks ... And i'll never be over any of it for the rest of my life.