Crystal Crank Meth Whatever You Want to Call It Addiction!! Posted: 05-10-07 04:23am
I need some advice. Im 27, I have been on
meth for about a year and a half, it
started out just a weekend thing then for
the last 7 months its been daily. Heres a
little background
I had never done drugs in my life!! My mom
was (or is) addicted to speed thats what
they called it back in the day, I'm
guessing its meth now. My younger brother
who is 22 was on it, in and out of jail
now back in. My bestfriend of 13 years one
night started talking to me about this
drug, I was a little curious, I was
scared, I asked a lot of questions then I
told her I would try it. She had her
roommate get some, he and I actually
started dating around the same time too. I
tried it, thought it was cool, I did a
parachute (swallowing) for awhile it was
just the weekend thing. Then in September
of 06 my friend and I started doing it
daily cause I had lost my job (not cause
of that though) and we were hanging out
all the time. My boyfriend (now its been 1
yr and 9 months together) would do it but
usually after work or on the weekends, I
should also mention that he used to have a
coke problem but is now not on it. Lately
he has been giving me a hard time about
doing it everyday, I will admit that I
wanted to cut back or stop but being that
we all live together my best friend didnt
want to so it was really hard for me to
stop. I told him if he didnt want to do it
then I wouldnt bring it up or do it around
him but he would ask me about it then he
would do it. Well this weekend he decides
while he is out with a friend that he cant
come home that he is moving out cause he
cant be around it anymore. We have been
talking about moving together for about 4
months now but we havent been able to find
a place. We basically broke up, I'm
devastated, he says that I love the drugs
more then him which is completely false!!
My heart is broke, I told him I would quit
for him many times cause he is way more
important but now I'm lost, I dont know
what to do, I want to quit but I asked him
to help me and he wont. I feel stuck cause
I dont have anyone, I feel like we should
be sticking together and doing this
together but he refuses. So I sit here
alone but not alone cause my best friend
is here (who is still doing it and doesnt
want to quit) and my boyfriend or ex
whatever is over there and is barely
talking to me. I can move back home and
live with my grandma but everytime I'm
alone with my thoughts I start crying
cause I feel betrayed by a man that said
he was in love with me then just bails on
me. Can I do this alone? I mean I thought
he would give me some support but no he is
being a total jerk about it. If I wasnt
around it I could quit but then I start
getting depressed cause the love of my
life isnt here. I apologize if I seem to
be rambling or confusing, I just have a
lot of thoughts going in my brain and I'm
lost. Any advice is appreciated.
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Kick the meth and start afresh Posted: 06-03-08 08:27am
Crystal meth is actually a lot stronger
than speed from what i've heard.. I feel
really sorry for you because unfortunately
it sounds as though you're environment is
the reason for you getting addicted to
drugs. I would strongly urge you or anyone
on meth to go and get some professional
help. You don't need to live a life like
the one you're living. there are people
out there who are willing to help you.
doctors, AA meetings, case managers and
more...
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uhmok
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Aug 2008 Posts: 4
Posted: 08-25-08 19:20pm
i may be hiv positive because of meth
actually, i found out i had anal sex with
an hiv positive top luckily we were
interrupted and i got nervous and left,
but of course we were smoking meth. The
next day I did it all nght with 2 guys i
just met, all raw, its bad cuz once u
start smoking it u lose everything you
stand for...but theres nothing like gettin
used on it