I Need Someone,maybe Its You? Females Respond Only

This is kind of unusual for me, i am more of an advice giver than an advice taker. But just like everyone on here i am here because i have unresolved issues, if it accomplishes nothing else but allowing me to express myself than that will be worth something.

I wish i could make this post short but given the length of the problem that just isnt possible. I need someone, my whole life i have constantly been alone. I dont relate to other people, never really been in a social situation where interaction was available to me. I have never been accepted for how i am and this has caused emotional damage.

I know my issues, and that is not why i am writing here today. I dont even pretend to hope that someone out there will know more than i already do, i am in a place where i cant seem to find my way out. My inner being shifts from one level to another, and i cant seem to find a balance.

All i have ever wanted was one special girl. One that was honest, sweet, caring and kind, romantic, considerate, passionate, energetic and enthusiastic. Maybe even a little bubbly, but in my entire life i have never had an emotional connection with a girl.. Most likely because i have not met enough.

Which brings me to why i am here, this causes me great stress and anxiety prohibiting me to relax and enjoy the beautiful things the world has to offer. I cant enjoy anything, nothing makes me feel good. I have tried doing things i like.. Sure i like them but i dont enjoy them, i dont smile after i have played some sport or whatever. And its killing me, piece by piece my armor is chipped away.

For anyone whom may read this and have a problem with this posting, go find something better to do than harass someone who is trying to find their way out of the darkness! Honesty for the whole world to see. I am the wrath of a volcanoe, i am the cold sharpness of a sword. I am a creature lurking in the shadows and circling in silence.

Ok forget meds and therapists, i need a female with the attributes of an angel. But who am i kidding right? This isnt a movie with a happy ending, this is life and it doesnt usually end with a happy ending. This is just a howl in the night, i am a wolf may a female return my call. I am a poet by the way, this is how i express myself.

Oh and please, dont be a smartmouth and reply with some negative response. I know you people out there with nothing better to do, but seriously move it on. Heres hoping for something..