Hello people im new to this and my names Kim.

I needed someone to talk to and found this site and thought id see if anyone would talk back.

Last Saturday i had to tell my boyfriend of 5 and a half years i had cheated on him, due to him thinking he had Chlamedia and he was very confused as to how he could of got it and swore he had not cheated on me and said we both needed to get tested. So if the results came back positive he would know ive cheated so he confronted me beforehand.

I cheated on him with an ex of mine about 8 months ago. The worse thing is my bf spoke to him as a mate now and again.

My bf split with me and i have done nothing but cry everyday. After a few days he started talking to me as we live together and i had to keep coming home to get some stuff. But he could not be round me longer than a few hours or he would start asking questions as to why i done it and start arguing with me.

I went to London for a few days to get away but before i went he text me saying he didnt want me to go.

I loved him so much and i honestly dont know why i cheated on him which is the confusing part, so when he asks me why i cant answer his question. I have been begging for his forgivness and he says he really wishes i didnt do it as he loved me so much and wishes it was a bad dream, although he cannot forgive me as he will be picturing it all the time when he is with me.

This has been such a big mistake in my life and it is getting me down really bad.

He went out last night and came back and said everyone was talking about me in the pub and some people want to hit me and hes just warning me. I feel like everyone has turned against me and ive lost a long term bf and a lovely life that i feel theres not much point in living as i have nothing to live for!!!

I know its hard for him to forgive me but surely some people can pull through things like this? hes more upset that i lied to him for so long and he says im not the person he thought i was as he misplaced his love with me.


PLEASE HELP