Hello, as you can see, I'm new. I'm 20
years old and currently
in a recurring confused state. I honestly
don't know what my
problem(s) is(are) and if I can eventually
overcome...This...
I spend the better part of my day simply
thinking. Thinking
about past and present experiences and
trying to figure it all
out. Rather then functioning in the
moment, I find myself
drifting off into my own private world.
When I'm in this state
I feel I have a better understanding of
people and the different
processes which govern them. This excites
me and I start to
feel euphoric (I don't use drugs). Talking
quickly and having
debates with people, testing there
intellect and blahing...
(you must be thinking I'm a nut case, but
it's sadly more
complicated). I constantly analyze each
situation and try to view
it from different perspectives.
Revelations occur and I feel
I grow in wisdom through these processes,
but then...I wake-up
(figuratively and metaphorically). This is
when I start to feel
confused and depressed, because I realize
I'm an fool...Why?
I excel in Mathematics and Creative Arts.
I am able to logically
reason and yet, I know
things...even-though I don't, because I
never seem to complete the puzzle. It
always seems to morph...
Therefore, I am never able to explain...
I stopped associating with my friends a
couple of years back. I
have no friends at the moment, nor do I
want or need any. It's
depressing, because I can still remember
the good times. Having
fun...Such sweet moments in life, twas
pure joy. Now, those
experiences turn on me-'The Truman Show'
comes to mind (you know
that movie with Jim Carey). I feel like
I've lived many lives.
To bad, life's so short...To short for
people to waste there time
on me lol...
I feel like I have some sort of disease,
which is making my brain
malfunction.
I've recently had a mental evaluation
done. It took many visits
but in the end, they have not reached a
diagnosis-They say something
is not right, but they have no clue as to
what it is...GREAT...
I'm still young, so I have hope. I don't
know how I can benefit
from posting this, but it's worth a shot.
I still have hope, after
all I'm still young.
Any comment, tips, advice, personal
experiences are encouraged and
greatly appreciated-spam included, as
expected. Thank-you:)
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Rachel B
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 24 May 2007 Posts: 6 Location: PA
I Think You're Too Caught Up In Your Mind. Posted: 05-29-07 23:15pm
Go out, have fun. You're 20 yo, you'll
never be this age again - don't waste it.
Don't worry so much. I mean, in a lot of
ways it's typical for someone your age -
not everyone, just some people who are a
little more sensitive - to worry and
wonder about the meaning of life. But life
is what you make it. You can go out and
create something wonderful. I mean,
really, what would be the purpose of some
doctor coming up with some psychiatric
diagnosis? It just becomes "who you are"
and doesn't really help. Then they put you
on different medicines and even though
they help some people with some aspects of
thought disorders, they have horrible side
effects. Think of a time in your life when
things were going well. Try and think of
some of the things you were doing then.
Start doing them again. Even if you don't
feel like it; do it anyway. (Sometimes
your body has to pull your mind along,
kicking and screaming.) Try yoga, try tai
chi, try meditation or deep breathing.
Just please relax.
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danielv
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Jul 2003 Posts: 124 Location: , Europe
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Posted: 07-09-07 10:22am
Hello John,
I was rather interested by your post.
There is a theorem in mathematics which
states that any formal system is either
incomplete or contains paradoxes. It is
therefore quite a neat challenge to find a
logical system of thought capable of
explaining your experience of life.
I understand and sympathize with your
dilemma. Life can seem quite puzzling,
especially for those inclined to abstract
thought. None of the basic patterns which
people routinely exercise in their lives
make much sense from the point of view of
an outside observer.
There is however a definite experience
which you are aware of, and it sounds as
if you are trying to reach a certain
understanding of this experience. There
is an excellent technique for this which
incidentally reduces stress and promotes
that sense of being being fully present in
life.
It's a form of meditation. If any of this
makes sense - message me.
