Hey folks, I have been smoking weed for pretty much five years now but since a few month back I've started to do it less and less with the occasional bendgesmoking sessions. The problems I am experiencing and have experienced are pretty much what all "frieerz" have, non existing school results, loss of friends whom I love, oral deteriotation, total loss of memory from streches of time that were dedicated to the herb and the constant reminder that I've seem to have missed the starting gun (partly a quote from "Time" by Pink Floyd) But what hurts me the most is my "weeder friends" state. I was the first of my friends who began smoking after experiencing some heavy duty evidence from rolemodels and media that it wasn't a big deal to smoke. Sadly I spread my newfound "wisdom" with my friends like a crazed missionary on meth. We had some great years with weed, traveling, conversation and a huge number of soulreleasing laughs but for the last couple of years the trip has deteriorated.
I have been starting to notice how they one by one have slipped into depressions, seeking out ways to rid themselves of the feeling of worthlessness but most of all they have been cursed with a great egocentrism, egoism (well they are acting extremely egoistic), only thinking about themselves in a way almost psycotic. I know I have a great mountain to climb before I can quit smoking or at least control my love for the green lady but I know that I want to be able to control my way through life. But my dear friends, who might I add have the most snapping minds I have ever encountered, haven't exactly got the same way to look at it as I do. They are so reliant of weed now that its their solution for everything thrown at them and because of their genius they can't be reasoned with, well they reason they caca out of you while failing to see their own existence failing. Its not like i try to come of as a saint, i totally get where they're at and in the most parts i feel exactly what they feel, except I feel it when high and they feel it when they're not high. I know I can help my self but I've tried and I don't seem to be able to help them. I would love to hear what ever you guys and girl have to say about it, maybe its not my responsibility but I dreamt a dream last night of my friends before we started smoking and I swear to god i woke up in tears from the fact of what they have become. Otherwise thx for ur threads dedicated to us stoners. I know we will rule the earth some day if we just care a little more! Peace /morris