... and more than slightly panicky, at the moment.

I realized the other day that I can't remember the last time I had my period. I dont' know if that's because it's been longer than a month or because nothing was going on at the time to sort of mark the occasion in my mind. Also, I have a tendency to skip sometimes.

Still, I find myself lying awake at night trying to will it to show up and thinking about how much I don't want another baby right now - not to mention that we aren't financially prepared for that in any way. And thinking about how unfair it is that we've been using protection but I might be pregnant anyway when there are people out there trying to no avail to have kids.

Ugh, stupid nature.