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because I fear of getting siclk when I get colds I think that it's HIV or Hepatitis C and when I walk pas people I always hink that they are going to stick me with a needle when I have muscle aches I start thinking that someone haves stuck me with a needle I am scared to be near objects in public because I start thinking that there may be blood on them I have to look at every person that walks past me because if I don't and than I start to think what if he stuck me with a needle and I didn't feel it. When I was visiting my cousin in the hospitial I was in the visiting room my mom had called me into the other visiting room because she said that there's was hot chocolate so I walked inside the other visiting room and she gave me some money and left while standing in there waiting on my hot chocolate this tall scary African man was sitting in the other room staring at me he was so scrary I am not racist I am African American myself but anyways I was looking at him like he bet not walk into here please don't while I was thinking that he stood up and walk directly into the room I grab my drink real fast and walked past him reaal fast I had on this real thick leather coat that day while I walk past him I started to have a panic attack I was checking my arm to make sure that he didn't stick me with no needle and later on I found this little scratch on my arm and I was thinking what if he dropped a needle in my coat. But when I looked back into that room he watching tv and yawning his wife was in surgery

One day at my job I was eating inside the office which is wendy's
I was eating chilli and you know that tomato paste looks like blood and the skin off the red beans looks like blood but anyways when I was finish eating I wipe up my mess off of the desk and it was just me and my manager in and out the office and he is a neat freak but when I wiped my mess off the desk I started freaking out because it looked like blood I started crying but when first sat down and started eatting the desk was spotless and neat. But anyways my gay manager came up there visiting that day with his boyfriend and boy they are really wild and out there but I was crying to him and he showed his boyfriend the napkin and said to him what do this looks like he said that it may be animal blood from by the grill so it test it out and took a napkin and stuck it in the animal blood and said that what it was but I started calming down and than when I got home I started to have a panic attack because I was touching my gay manager and rubbing my face from crying and than I started to cry again because I was thinking what if I had touch something on him and than rubbed my face but I calm down after some days about the chilli because if it was blood it would had bled onto the other side and who would bleed in the office and mu manager said that it was the chilli and I had asked everybody in wendy's who was bleeding in the office and everybody said not me but I am still thinking about my gay manager who I had touched while I was crying.