I am 23. I cut myself for 5 years now. But I have stopped for almost 1 year and a half. Lately I feel the same, old urges again and again. I started cutting all over again.
A year ago a fellow student died of cancer. It was a great shock for me. She was so young. So full of life. Since then I feel like crap. Day by day I m losing my mind, my willing to live, to study and so on.
About 2 months ago I started psychotherapy. It took me a great deal of time to find the right doctor for me. Still I dont know if it will help me. I dont feel much difference till now. But I came up with that thought.
For me cutting is strongly related with sexual compulsion. I ve never had sex till now. It is quiet embarrasing. It feels like a "disease". "i m not attractive". "i m not pretty". These thoughts are haunting me... I kinda hat emy body. And by cutting or burning it I feel relieved.
Anyone with the same thoughts??