That is a completely natural feeling. To me anyways. I'm 20 as well. I feel sometimes like I want everything now and it really bothers me when it doesn't work that way. I feel like I should have the perfect marriage (which I do). I want my own house. I want to be further in my career and making more money. I also want to start a family. (Something we are working towards) But it really gets me down sometimes that I'm not were I want to be in my life. The biggest problem is probably my job. I have a good job and I am good at what I do. I just don't know if its what I want for the rest of my life. Its a hard age because we have all this pressure to have our lives and futures figured out and when we don't it feels almost like a failure and it's like everyone around you knows that to. I just wanted to let you know that you aren't alone.

You may want to speak to your doctor about your antidepressants. As we get older our hormones and needs change. Some meds that worked great in the past might not work as well as they should anymore. You will probably feel better if you can get a medicine that works better for you. In the meantime, feel free to come on here anytime you want just to talk or to vent. We're here to help.

Hey there, I certainly understand. My depression also started when I got out of school, when I was alone alot... I also felt lost and was depressed for a year after that... I belive if I hadn't been cured, I would still have it to this day.... I went to Negative Emotional Release Treatment... the doctor basically RELEASED my depression and anxiety.. I feel 100% better now... and I feel like my goals are more attainable now... maby this is something that you need as well... If you do go.. make sure it's actually someone that treats you, that has his/her qualification for this treatment. There are alot of guides that you can buy on the internet, that guide you through release, but don't buy anything like that. Put your trust in a real practitioner... it's great... stay strong buddy!.. I'm here for ya!

Hi guys thanks for your kind replys. Well what an age to be at then as it must be common to feel like that at times but I would have preferred it didn't lead to this long term depression. My docter only recently gave me another perscription of the same drugs so I guess she didn't feel ready to give me new ones yet. I never told her why I feel I may be depressed she just noticed. Also warren I don't like to talk about it at all and usually choose not to and say nothing or act a different way when confronted about it. I have been sent to a siciatrist before but just lied and just didn't express myself. I just find it hard yano so I just never bothered. I would like to get help but I don't fancy speaking to my parents about it or my docter or anyone accept this time on here I guess. I would kinda feel embarressed showin my mum a letter stating date and times to go see someone about depression. I dunno what to do like do I just sit it out n see what happens I dunno. When I go sleep I just don't want to wake up which has lead me to a bad sleeping patturn as I usually go to sleep at 9am ish and wake up at night so I'm away in a sleep in the day and awake at night when I'm alone. This obviously dosn't go down well with my mum n dad as I look lazy n it dosn't fit in well with college neither as I'm either usually shattered or never did wake up to go.

If I was to go through depression again, knowing what I know now, I would look up the nearest NERT (negative emotional release treatment) centre, pick up the phone and book the appointment. Personally, even if the treatment centre was a thousand miles away, I would still go... I would fly there. I truley believe that this isn't something that you can just wait out.. and if it is you might waste too much valuable time that you could be spending happy. I actually did that for a while.. I thought that it was just a phase that I was going through and that it would just fade away with time.. but it just persisted to bring me down. I know that I might sound a little obsessed with it but NERT has given my life back and taken away every negative thing. When I went to for my conseltation, I had to fill out a form that asked which emotions I was experiencing all the time... anxiety.. depression.. anger..confusion...sadness...lonliness.... worthlessness.. etc. and when I checked the boxes beside them,, the doctor acknowledged it and told me that evertthing would be alright, and that we would release everything that was on the list... I was blown away... more so after it actually worked!!! So that's why I'm so obsessed about it.. It was like I found a secret stash of gold way beneath the ocean or something...


I'm determined to help you...

hold your thoughts high...

Hi well the docter has never mentioned a negative emotional release treatment program at all to me unless a siciatrist is simular but i dont think they are. I feel like I wouldn't tell these people whats up n whats wrong sometimes I just can't do it. Also the examples of what u said you ticked well I feel like all of those so yano would they beable to try n cure me of all of those.

Now that you are happy whats it like. I can't remember what its like. I do on the odd acassion laugh or smile n feel better so isit like that all the time. I was probibly happy up to about 15 years old but at the time I prob just took it for granted n yeah there was things I didn't like that brought me down n stuff but is that whats its gonna be like again when I'm not depressed. Isn't there anyway to not feel down at all.

When I go to job search to look for a job the people there say works not supposed to be fun and all that so people that work do you feel down all them hours in the day at work n feel better when you go home. Well I don't feel down for that if thats how it is. I feel like I havn't signed up for that sort of lifestyle and would prefer to be asleep forever. When stuff is crap people say well thats life n it seems like theres alot of things that will bring people down n theres nothing u can do about it such as work n other things. I don't like the sound of that at all. Life feels like its not all what its cracked up to be. I'm just confused now on how I'm supposed to feel when your not depressed cus I just can't remember.