I've had depression for over 3 years and
im really tired of it. I've been through
treatment and everything, and i still feel
like crap. I honestly have nothing to live
for at all. I've missed school for almost
a whole month because of this. Not only
that but i was born in the wrong body and
i dont have the money to change that and
even if i did it woulden't be the same, i
want to be a guy so bad, or atleast
pretty. Im tired of looking at myself in
the mirror and crying because i hate the
way i look so bad i barley even go
outside anymore because i hate the way i
look. I've really tried to live with the
fact that im ugly but i cant, im always
comparing myself to otheres and i hate
itt. I guess it would be nice if you gave
me advice but nothing can really
changethis. I'll probably just end up
killing myself im not afraid too.
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Georgia59
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Joined: 11 Apr 2007 Posts: 5557 Location: Along the Mississippi, USA
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Posted: 04-25-07 12:08pm
What kinds of treatment have you had? It's
important for you to know that depression
is not something you have to have. There
are many ways to treat depression, from
medication to counseling to therapy to
holistic methods, and everyone seems to
respond to a different kind of therapy.
Find a good licensed psychologist who is
willing to help you find what works for
you. Tell him or her what you have tried
and what doesn't work.
Also know that there is no cure, and once
you find a treatment that works, you will
have to keep doing it even if you feel
better. It works the same way as with any
other disease. But you can treat it, and
you can feel better.
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entices1
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Joined: 25 Apr 2007 Posts: 120 Location: North Florida, USA
Posted: 04-25-07 19:34pm
My poor friend, I feel so badly for you.
You are not alone. As one who went for
over 30 years undiagnosed with depression
and more than once wished that I was dead
I understand what you're going through. I
felt like I was drowning and couldn't
find a rope to grab on to.
Please, please, please find help. It may
take some time to find someone you can
trust and finding the right med (may need
a combination) and dose will also take
some doing (from one who knows). I'll be
on meds for the rest of my life. When you
find the right med (or combo) STICK TO IT.
My primary care physician took me off the
med my psychiatric nurse-practitioner had
prescribed and my life slid downhill for
several months. I didn't realize what was
going on, only that my life felt worse and
worse. One morning (I wasn't at work,
luckily) I had a crying jag that came on
all of sudden and wouldn't stop--over the
morning it got worse and worse. I called
the office and got an appointment within
an hour or so (I live in a small city with
a limited number of mental health
professionals). I cried and cried during
the interview and he intially prescribed
me Wellbutrin (this may not work for you,
I'm only sharing my experience). It
helped within 24 hours. I'm now taking
Lamictal. There are a great many meds
that are available for help.
Meds are a great help but please
understand that you may still have bad
times. I've been on a crying jag for two
weeks for something I can't talk to anyone
about. I have these episodes every few
years and usually find my center within
six weeks or so.
It may help to keep a journal just to pour
your feelings out. You might be able to
find things that trigger episodes that
make you feel worse than other times.
Life is too short to be unhappy. If you
lack funds there might be some kind of
social service network where you can get
help at little or no cost.
