Will Someone Please Help Me? Posted: 04-20-07 20:31pm
Hi, Im 14 and all thorugh middle school I
feel like I have been getting deeper and
deeper into this depression thing. Im not
sure if I have a real problem and Im sorry
if Im not in the right board but I dont
want to tlak to my parents about this
until I know if I actually may have
something. Weel first off, I have very low
self esteem and I cant handle walking in
front of people and it really scares me
just to be close to people in general. I
am deathly afriad of tornadoes and am
always wondering why my life is worth
living. I randomly feel tired and hopeless
then at times ill feel hyper an happy but
not "on top of the world" like bi polar or
anything. When I am feeling down I always
think of death and how my lfie is going no
where and feel like everyone is out to get
me. I get so stressed out about every
little thing and it builds up and builds
up until I cant handle it anymore. I feel
nervous a lot and get "butterflies" all of
the time. For example, today in my English
class I had to memorize some shakespere to
recite in front of the class and Id been
wroking all week on it. I got so nervous
and worried that I couldnt remember
anything and went back to sit down and
started crying silently. I felt like a
failure and a baby all at one time. This
happens all of the time to me even when I
dont get a good time after running a mile
in PE. Everything just builts up and I
completely freeze up and fail. Afterwards
I cant forget the incident the whole day
and often want to just cry all of the
time. I feel like Im failing everything I
do and I cant handle my life anymore. I
constantly think of death and being
follwed. I always shut and lock my bedroom
door have to make sure my blinds
completely cover my windows so no one can
see me or try to get me in my sleep. I
always run down stairs because I fell like
Im being chased and I cant walk by big
glass doors because I think I will be
snipered. I sound crazy but its true.
Especially at my age I feel like the
biggest baby ever. Again, sorry if I
rambled on a bit I just really dont know
what to do anymore everday this problem
gets wore and worse.
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sillyakchick
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Posted: 04-20-07 21:35pm
I think this really warrants a discussion
with your parents and a very good
counselor. Good luck.
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ckayyy93
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Joined: 20 Apr 2007 Posts: 12
Posted: 04-20-07 21:55pm
Thank you. I guess I should try to talk to
them.
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Shyelo
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Joined: 29 Apr 2007 Posts: 2
Ckayyy93 Posted: 04-29-07 17:56pm
Hi, I read you post and It worried me.. I
know It may be hard to talk with your
folks about all of your fears and worries
BUT you HAVE to talk with someone.. If you
can't talk with them go to your favorite
teacher or a friends mom..NEVER be afraid
to ask for help!!
14 year old kids have tons of problems
these days and you are not alone BUT it is
something that needs to be taken care of
my a professional...
There are people out here that can help
you, please let an adult know how you feel
so you can get the help you deserve and
need.
Hugz & Blessings
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hawkeye69
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Apr 2007 Posts: 29 Location: Wisconsin
Posted: 04-30-07 09:58am
I have twin daughters in their first year
of high school. Last year, when they were
in 8th grade, suddenly one of my girls
developed OCD. I guess it wasn't sudden,
but the symptoms got bad real fast. I
wonder if sometimes these things are
brought on by changing hormones. Don't
feel like a failure. Whatever it is, it
isn't your fault. I reassure my daughter
all the time that it isn't her fault. She
takes meds now, and sees a counselor. she
is getting much better. She may have a bad
day now and then, but that's to be
expected. I hope you talk with your
parents, and please get some professional
help. Your life can be so much better with
the right kind of help
Good luck!
It sounds like you were in the same
position I was in when I was your age.
Maybe we can connect very easily. Feel
free to PM or email me, I will try my best
to support you. Even though I'm no longer
14, I was there. I have depression
co-existing with a lot of other problems.
Don't worry, you're not alone.
There are times where you feel so sad and
down that you start to think what's life
all about? but try to refocus on a
positive topic. It's ok to feel about
death sometimes. But if that's becoming
too prevalent and you start to come up
with plans or gestures. You need to go to
the nearest hospital to stay safe. I
realli want you to know that a lot of
people care about you.
I was the same way. I didn't think anyone
cared. I didn't let my parents know until
I landed in the hospital with a suicide
attempt. But please, don't try to harm
yourself. It realli isn't worth it. You
will get better. You will grow stronger.
With the proper counselling and
therapeutic regime, you will get better.
Trust me. My Friend. I really know how you
feel. Please don't give you even if it
seems like you're stuck in a dark, deep
hole.
I want you to get better. I want you to
get stronger and be the person you want to
be.
Best of luck. Hope you feel better soon.
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Ninjight
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 May 2007 Posts: 10
Re: Will Someone Please Help Me? Posted: 05-08-07 06:30am
You are in serious need of some serious
attention, it sounds like you have some
very deep issues. if you feel the need i
could try and help you find the cause of
your issues. Your life needs direction, I
can help you. If you choose to talk to me
it would be important for me to know your
gender because guys and girls think and
react different to things. Hope to hear
from you soon.
ckayyy93
wrote:
Hi, Im 14 and all thorugh
middle school I feel like I have been
getting deeper and deeper into this
depression thing. Im not sure if I have a
real problem and Im sorry if Im not in the
right board but I dont want to tlak to my
parents about this until I know if I
actually may have something. Weel first
off, I have very low self esteem and I
cant handle walking in front of people and
it really scares me just to be close to
people in general. I am deathly afriad of
tornadoes and am always wondering why my
life is worth living. I randomly feel
tired and hopeless then at times ill feel
hyper an happy but not "on top of the
world" like bi polar or anything. When I
am feeling down I always think of death
and how my lfie is going no where and feel
like everyone is out to get me. I get so
stressed out about every little thing and
it builds up and builds up until I cant
handle it anymore. I feel nervous a lot
and get "butterflies" all of the time. For
example, today in my English class I had
to memorize some shakespere to recite in
front of the class and Id been wroking all
week on it. I got so nervous and worried
that I couldnt remember anything and went
back to sit down and started crying
silently. I felt like a failure and a baby
all at one time. This happens all of the
time to me even when I dont get a good
time after running a mile in PE.
Everything just builts up and I completely
freeze up and fail. Afterwards I cant
forget the incident the whole day and
often want to just cry all of the time. I
feel like Im failing everything I do and I
cant handle my life anymore. I constantly
think of death and being follwed. I always
shut and lock my bedroom door have to make
sure my blinds completely cover my windows
so no one can see me or try to get me in
my sleep. I always run down stairs because
I fell like Im being chased and I cant
walk by big glass doors because I think I
will be snipered. I sound crazy but its
true. Especially at my age I feel like the
biggest baby ever. Again, sorry if I
rambled on a bit I just really dont know
what to do anymore everday this problem
gets wore and worse.
