I'm not even sure where to start..... Basically I'm having itching "attacks" whenever my heartbeat increases. I can be walking up the stairs and have it trigger, I can be hearing an annoying ad on the television in the other room and get annoyed and have it trigger, I can be suprised by a creature jumping out from behind a corner in a video game and have it trigger.... I'm 19, i weigh about 182 lbs, im probably 5 foot, 11 inches tall...and I have no idea what to do....

I've been taking allergy antihistamines in lotion and pill form for about 2 months now and its just getting worse...my mom says that its just allergies and I'll grow out of it soon enough but.....if this doens't stop I'm seriously considering suicide, it's that horrible...

I can feel myself go into a "triggering" state and I immedietely slow WAY down, i basically stop in my tracks and concentrate on my breathing. If I was in the middle of a conversation or something I'll just walk away and go lay down on my bed's cool sheets. Sometimes stopping and focusing on remaining calm can make the "state" pass, but usually it just delays it.
When triggered it feels like someone is throwing those little firework poppers on me, kinda like a spark is landing on me, all super concentrated on a certain area, usually on my shoulders or sides. Then it feels like its ignited, literally, my entire upper skin section. Like that spark ignites my fuel covered chest scalp_back and shoulders and I turn red all over and am just overcomed by itchiness, its all over my upper body and no matter how much I scratch it just won't stop itching.

That lasts for about 2 whole minutes but it feels like much longer...then after its done I'm left in the "triggering" state again so I just lie there for a while til it passes. When it is over I feel soooo good, that must be what mood swings are like. =/ I can't go running anymore, I can't go to any stores, I can't help people do pretty much anything without getting these attacks.
I don't even want to think about getting a job, what kind of job could allow me to function without getting these episodes? This is crazy....this body is so crappy, lmao. I've searched around and I seem to be suffering from an extreme case of this~ Cholinergic Urticaria ~ It doesn't have a cure as far as I can tell.... I can't live with this much longer, hell I'm hardly living at all....I just sit around being careful to not exert myself...plz help.
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