Hi everyone~ well I am having a not so good time right now... As some of u might know, I am recovering from an e/d (both anorexia and bulimia but more-so bulimia) anyhow I have only purged 3 times in the past 3 1/2 months which is terrific for me and its now been a month about sense I did it.....Well today, I just ate kentucky fried chicken (not the chicken cuz I dont eat meat, but potatoe wedges, and a biscuit, cole slaw, and these 2 quesidilla things! I know. . Its a ton. . I way over-ate. .. Well I felt/feel terrible so I ran to the bathroom.. Ready to purge.. I had my toothbrush.. I stood there for a minute and then I just couldnt do it . . I couldnt do it cuz I didnt want my baby to have to be there while his mom purged her food (his nutrients) . . I mean I know it wouldnt nessescarily hurt him tho cuz many women throw up a ton during pregnancy. .But I didnt do it. Its hard tho I can tell u . . I want to do it so bad right now.. I know I definitly over ate and I just feel awful especially with my belly already big as it is without all that extra food. Ugh this is so hard I want to cry! It shouldnt bother me maybe cuz either way im gonna gain (im 4 1/2 months tomorrow) I just cant explain how sick and disgusted I feel right now. I am going on a walk tho at least so maybe that will help. Its just that ive been eating sooo much lately and I feel as tho ive just lost all control. I know I will be hungry more bein preg. But I feel like im crossing the line sometimes.