hey guys. i'm bored bored bored.

gabe has been soooooo fussy the past 2 days. it's ridiculous! i think he's constipated. although maybe not, 'cause he just had a little poop not too long ago. he's just gassy or something. but he's been .fussy .mc.fusser .butt! last night, i was soooo frazzled last night that i let my very inebriated mother feed him (under supervision of course). & .then she asked me if i gave him a sponge bath earlier, & i said no, & she goes off on some tangent about how i have to do that every few days, & i was i was sorry, that i didn't know i was supposed to because we just did the day before yesterday.. & then she was like ".you're just too wrapped up in other things to do anything for your own son, .kristina." .O.H. H.E.L.L. N.O. S.H.E. D.I.D. N.O.T! what the medical question does she think i do all day when .i'm home alone? um, hello? so i was just like, fuming mad. so i got up, & i said, "give me my son." & .took him from her, & i said, ".i think you're a little too wrapped up in that." & i pointed to her drink. & .she goes, "oh please. you rely on me for so much." & .so i told her that relies on her alcohol too much. & .she got all defensive, & i told her that she gets drunk every single night & that it's ridiculous & it isn't fair. & .she was like ".i do .n.o.t!" .whatever. it was so retarded. she got all upset & slammed some doors & stomped upstairs. sorry, but no drunk old woman is going to insult my parenting.

anyway, lol. then .chris came over to help me out & give me a little break. but he kept falling asleep while he was feeding .gabe.. he kept saying ".i am soooooo tired." .yeah, so am i, buddy. but it's always nice to see him. but i am doing a lot better. i wrote a really motivated blog on my myspace (myspace.com/conductive) & i am positive that he read it.. so i want to know he thought about it. i might ask him.

he's coming over in a little bit & we're going to take .gabe to .chris's aunt & uncle's house for a while. then .i'm gonna have him stop at .target so we can get a play gym for .gabe! yay.

my ex-boyfriend/one of my best friends, .cody, & i are maybe gonna get together this week & work on doing some acoustic songs. i'm excited. i'm trying to find some really easy songs to cover.

does anybody here listen to .eisley? their music is sooo beautiful. that's what i sing to .gabe everynight when .i'm putting him down for bed. i highly suggest you guys go check out their myspace, or download some of their songs. my favorites are "one day i slowly floated away", "just like we do", "brightly wound", "marvelous things", & "memories" .. for real, you guys should check them out. so amazing. my favorite thing to sing ever.

gabe smiles at me almost daily, now. he'll be 4 weeks on .sunday. he's so beautiful.

i'm feeling pretty good today.

sorry this was so long!