i am 22. i feel lonely. lost. underconfident. i am smart. yet i am depressed. i like to imagine myself dying...and then i cry my heart out..and go to sleep when i am tired. my mind is all chaotic.
nothing is clear to me. hazy..
i was happy once..
long long time back..
i dont smile at all..these days..

Remeber life is the most important thing you have. I have thought the exact same way you have but you know what conclusion i came up with "we have these thoughts because it is easier that facing the circumstances". You definately need help.

Do you have a school councellor you can speak with or a teacher that you trust enough.

Remember that no one can depict what you are worth but yourself. I know that being in a school with on friends is also hard as people can be cruel. Remember 1 good friend is better than 20 people you know.

If you dont think you can put up with these ex friends of yours would you consider changing schools to have a new start (extreme i know).

My 1# peice of advice is to get help. Talk to someone, see a Dr. Anything but we all know you cant go on feeling like this. Digging the imaginary hole only gets deeper when we do nothing.

There are also depression based web chat sites out there who can help you through this

If you need to talk please feel free to PM me. It helps to have someone to talk to.

Good Luck

Natalie

that's exactly what I say about the depression that I went through. I didn't want to die, but I thought that I just had to. I went through a year of severe depression and anxiety where I didn't know if my feet would just run myself off a cliff or something.. every day the question would pop into my head asking me if I was going to live or die. It was by far the most horrifying experience of my life. I got so sick of feeling like no body and depressed, I began searching for the real final cure for depression. I knew that drugs would make me feel better for the time being but wouldn't actually cure the depression and I knew that counseling would just sorts things out in my head, so I looked back to the time when the depression and anxiety first set in. The discovery was just so amazing, when I realized this I gained alot of hope that I would find the cure. What I realized was that I had gone through a very depressing experience where I was very emotional every day, and I remember not being able to cope with the emotions at the time. Ever since, I felt those same depressive emotions, so I knew that I must of retained negative emotions. I looked it up an advertisement for a treatment that released negative emotions, and I went for the conseltation. When I got there, the doctor that did this treatment explained to me that depression, anxiety, anger, etc is caused by simply retaining negative emotoins... and at first I didn't believe it could be that easy.. but after the treatments were over... all of the depression and anxiety has been gone ever since. The depression, anxiety, confusion etc was permanently released. I am now happier than I ever have been. People are so surprised to see me out again, I actually socialize again and have the confidence to stand up for my self... and talk to strangers. I love life once again.. and don't worry about depression defeating me anymore... because I have found my fix for this problem. Please pm... and we can talk about what experiences you might have gone through... even your mom putting you down all the time could cause you to retain emotions.. take care... love you all..

Warren

I a am here to help, here to please. I tell you this with ease, follow my way and you will rejoice in this day. Because i am the one, fire i hold the power of the sun. I see what you dont see, i sense what you dont sense, powerful am i. This is truth for i do not lie.



quote="boorah16"]Im new..this is my first post. I am unhappy. Recently 16. Life is !@#^ed.
- I have no friends
- Lost them to girl i hate
- They choose her over me everytime
- My mother is a drunk
- Always tells me how worthless i am and threatens me
- I hate my body
- Have had anorexia and bulimia
- I could be smart
- If i felt like there was any point when i dont plan on living any time past the end of this year

Life wasnt always this bad. I was happy. But its all gone now.[/quote]

Why are we here any way,just to die

I have a huge problem with ANY suicide prevention web-site that makes you register as an "official member" before you can type a single word.
I could have done the job in half the time it took me to become an "official member"WHAT??????????????????????

Welcome to the club. I know how you feel . I hate life, I want nothing more to do with it, I'm dead inside. Check my thread out http://ehealthforum.com/health/topic101538 .html

Basically nothing works out for me, and I am always getting screwed over with whatever I do. I feel like a misfit, that I don't fit in, that I don't belong. I can't talk to anyone, I can't get help from anyone. Everytime I try to get help or talk to someone for whatever reason basically it all gets thrown back into my face and in the end its that I am the problem and nothing else.

hi guyz, i guess people here are really upset about something that's why they are undergoing depression. Wish you were just dead wont do you good. I tell you! based from my experience... do not wish for something because you just might get it. Way back my high school days i wished to die because i hate myself and everything around me! i cry every night without a reason... no... i wasnt crazy at that time but i just feel that way so i do it. Then one night it happened... i almost died in my sleep... it was so terrible... i don't know what really happened that night but even my parents couldnt wake me up though i can hear them. Luckily i survived but afterwards i have an illness that forever will be with me until i die. I had problems with my brainwaves that it caused a mild epilepsy. I only get seizures during sleep not in my waking hours. It's scarier because sometimes i don't know when it'll happen. My neurologist told me that it was an effect of too much depression. In our family i am the 1st one to have this kind of illness or shall i say disorder... just becuase of my stupidity during my youth. Like what i said... do ot wish for something to happen to you because if that will happen... at that moment.... you'll grief and repent. You would wish you have never thought about dying!

I Know how you feel im 40 live a rubish life up till now accept i'm lonely as if somthings missing, i have 4 great kids and i love them to bits but i still feel lonely

Get on medication like effexor. See a doctor and better yet a psychiatrist NOW. Can you do this? Get you own place to live away from you mom.

I so sick and tired of people telling me what to do and to seek help. I don't want any help. It doesn't matter anymore... Life is not what it should be and yet I feel like I want to die!! I wish my life was over!!

Hey IM HERE for any one if you need me I will give you my email to help you out I have been going through this myself but I had a great friend to help me out

I have read each of your posts and all I can do is cry for you..To feel this sadness and loneliness..Do you have any idea what death is? Death is the end of all ends..There is no light at the end of that tunnel there is nothing but everlasting pain..
There is no harm in seeking help..Life is never fair..There will always be someone more pretty, handsome, smarter, better parents, better clothes, home or car, better job or food..You are in control of making this life handed you good or bad..No it's not for anyone else to decide..No matter what age you are you are in control on how you will react to the negative..If you react poorly then your misery grows..If you react in the mood of (oh well there is nothing I can do to change your mind)I am sorry you are hurting then the ugliness of that person will not grow on you..
As a child I was told how stupid I was, how all i was good enough for was to spread my legs and have babies..That's not true, I knew it then and I know it still..People who are hurting hurt others and it's a vicious cycle..Think how you feel when soemone smiles-it makes you feel better inside..Try it yourself and see what happens..Smile at a stranger or someone you care about..Forget those who hurt you the boyfriends or girlfirends..Real friends will stick by you no matter what..
Life will change for you when you will look at it through differnet eyes and the only way to do that is stop the pity party and get strong..Not saying it will be easy but please give it a try--one day at a time..

all i can say is be strong,go to church, pray, you have to have a positive support group, positive friends.
my grandpa raped his daughter (my aunt). he was crazy,he inturn made my dad crazy. my dad was married to my mom for 20 years. in that time he broke her arms, legs, fractured bones. he physically & mentally abused me and my other 3 siblings. that had a horrible effect on our childhood, adulthood, the relationships we get into, and how we treat our kids. for example my broher is abusive to his daughter calling her ugly, she inturn is sleeping with a lot of guys (which i did at her age) just to mask the pain.

ive been depressed for 18 years and i seen a therapist, taken prozac, have a support group. i know how it feels to want to die. my 13 year old son is my reason for living. then again i will live just to eat chinese food.
talking to a therapist, and being a round positive people helps.
no one can tell me how depressed they are as if i dont know how it feels, i do!
i dont care if it is chemical (hormonal imbalance). you have to want to get better, and want help. no one should be depressed for 18 years.
you have to get out of that house. your mother is part of why you feel the way you do.