so girls i'm back. albeit very reluctantly.

i went to scotland for a week to film with robbie. i'm assistant makeup artist on a feature film called 'a dying breed'. it's an end of the world film and it rocks!

robbie was doing the special fx on it and i didn't think i would enjoy working as much as i did

i absolutely loved every minute of it. of course, i missed the kids but i knew they were ok with neil. i really really loved working on the film and now i feel really miserable to be back

i'm happy to see the kids but i want to be back filming. they still have another 2 1/2 weeks of filming left and robbie is still up there. i just wish there was a way i could go back there (with the kids) i came home and i was in shell shock and everything seemed surreal after living in on the film set.

sorry i'm venting. i just feel really down right now. i told robbie if he has any short day shoots in london to drag me along as his assistant . i feel like it's my calling. i finally feel at home with my career....