Weed Is Beggning to Phase Out For Me Posted: 04-08-07 12:06pm
Hey everyone. I'm new here. I'm 26 years
old, and live in Upstate New York. Iv'e
been smoking weed for 8 years now, since I
was 18. But recently it has been affecting
me in a bad way. For the past 2 months or
so, whenever I happen to smoke, I get
these intense anxiety attacks, and get
super paranoid. I think to myself that I'm
dying and about to have a heart attack any
second and I get very scared for my life.
Now when this started happening I didn't
smoke anymore. Then 3 weeks later I did it
again and nothing happened. Then I quit
again for a month, and Friday night I
smoked a bowl. Cause someone gave me a
little bit of weed to sample. Well let me
tell you, it was about 15 degrees outside,
and I stood outside with a T shirt on for
several minutes cause I felt like if I
stayed inside I would die or suffocate. I
tried to watch an episode of Fraggle Rock
on Youtube.com. But I couldn't concentrate
on it, I couldn't even enjoy it, so I only
watched bits and pieces of it. I decided
that I needed to have something to eat, so
I pulled a Fish Dinner that I ordered
earlier that night but saved. I started
eating it, and felt a little better. But
then I started getting more paranoid
thoughts. I started thinking that the
tartar sauce tasted funny, and I started
to think it was poisoned and I was gonna
die. Then I started to think that the fish
was poisoned. I ate most of it, but gave
the rest to my dog. I decided that I
needed to go out. I just felt like I
needed to go for a nice long walk and the
cold air would make me feel better. I put
on my coat and shoes and started walking
down a trail not too far from my house.
But the minute I hit the trail, I got more
paranoid thoughts. I started thinking that
some wild Animals were gonna come out of
nowhere and start ripping me apart and
were gonna kill me. Either that or I
thought some bad dudes from the bad part
of town would be hanging out on the trail,
and that they were gonna jump me, or beat
me up really bad. Take all my money, and
mabye even kill me. Well then I turned
around and headed back for home. Once I
came inside, I turned the TV on Boomerang,
watched Popeye, and fell asleep. But it
was a very scary high. Now I have to ask
you. Do you guys think that since I'm
getting a little older, that my body is
reacting differently to weed? Do you think
it's the good Lords way of saying enough
is enough. Time to grow up and close this
chapter of my life? Where I live a lot of
guys my age don't smoke weed anymore. It's
basically something for a the High
School/College crowd. Mabye I'm just
outgrowing it, because I really don't feel
a strong need for it anymore. In fact this
past year it's been phasing out, because I
haven't been smoking quite as much, and I
only get like a bowl at a time and smoke
mabye once a week or once a month. But
after Friday night, I don't think I ever
want to do it anymore. I can see how it
gets to be mentally addicting, and can
screw with your life. I remember wasting
entire days beging in a bad depressed mood
because I didn't have any weed and
couldn't find any anywhere. If I had a jar
full of money with all the money Iv'e
spent on it these past 8 years, I'd be
quite rich right now. Do u all think that
mabye since I didn't start smoking it till
I was 18, while most guys I knew started
at 13 or 14, is the reason, why I'm 26 and
just now wanting to quit? Also, why do u
think I'm suddently getting anxiety
attacks off it now? Any info on this would
be greatly appreciated. I just feel like
my desires have been really changing
lately.
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tigergreg
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Nov 2007 Posts: 1
Your Problem... Posted: 11-30-07 14:43pm
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outstanding trades, and apologize to
anyone whose emails you've ignored.
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Rosie H
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Posted: 11-30-07 15:25pm
I think you should stop smoking pot. I
had the same thing happen to me. I spoked
pot for 5 years everyday. Then towards
the end I got so paranoid and seld
concious. I used to smoke cause it relaxed
me and I was able to kick back and have a
good time, but then it started to have the
reverse affect on me. I didnt want to go
anywhere or talk to anyone, I was always
worried about things. SO I stopped. I
didnt want to feel that bad anymore.
I would stop for months at a time and then
try smoking again, but each time the same
thing would happen to me. Finally after 3
trys I stopped all together.