I have been depressed today about it. I am really not a person that gives up easily. I have been fighting for this dream for many years (about 7 years). I have learned that not only one has to be qualified but one needs the experience (which is impossible to have when no one gives you the opportunity) and one needs to be in the right place at the right time. You need luck too. And look, the director of my dept bless her heart, she really wants to help me achieve my dream. Well a couple months ago there was a posting a great opportunity and she told me to apply for it because she was going to help me have it because she was friend of the hiring manager. Well can you believe that the hiring manager quitted the company and left shortly after? The position then got frozen. It's like i am not meant to have this kind of job.
At least I can say I did tried everything to get what i wanted even if I didn't get it in the end. Since i still have a year before i have a baby (if god give me one of those) I can try one last course. Something that at least can make more money of what i make and that is not totally disgusting.
I really hate to feel i'm stuck guys. I hate this feeling of there is something that i want and there is nothing i can do about it.
Thanks for letting me vent and thank for the advice