talk to a therapist.
the hospital will be able to put you in touch with someone.

you would not have seen a fetus lying on the floor at 9 1/2 weeks.
at that time it is only about an inch long.
it is more likely that you passed some tissue and assumed it to be the fetus.

I guess I worded it incorrectly. I didnt actually see the fetus itself but the sac containing it. It WAS verified by the OB that that's what it was. I just want to get past the image of it, even the sound of it hitting the floor. It was just..........disturbing. I knew I was losing the baby, i just didnt want to see that. u know?

I know how you feel. I was about 8 weeks when i lost my baby. Its very disturbing. I was at the obgyn getting an ultrasound and the doctor said that he could no longer see the baby. They had to put pills in my cervix which made everything come out and at that time i did see parts of the sack. I think im time everything will get better. But thats how i look at it. If you need to talk feel free to pm me. Once again im very sorry for your loss as well.

It is very difficult to let go of that moment. I had a miscarriage around 8 weeks and the sac, although quite small, fell out while I was in the shower (around a week after the bleeding began). I still think about this and I know from experience that this makes the already unfortunate circumstance all the more traumatic. It is so difficult but it really will get easier. Just talk to people, don't keep it to yourself... it truly does help. I got pregnant a few months after my miscarriage and now I have a beautiful son. Having him now and appreciating my life for how it is also helps. Sometimes bad things happen, but often good things will follow. Give it time. I hope this helps.